Yang

Slacker

2012-01-11T07:55:00.000-08:00

I think I've become a slacker in studies after moving out from campus. The whole study week was quite a waste though I din and din dare to watch any dramas, movies or series in my laptop.

Never in my finals I had failed to answer so many questions correctly, especially in my favourite elective subject - Options & Financial Futures Market. The first compulsory question shocked me for nearly 10 minutes before I could take my pen and start answering, because that theory question was TOTALLY unexpected ! I came across the formula and concept few times previously but I just quickly flipped through without attempting to understand and memorize the formula. And that's it, I've lost 30 marks due to my laziness. Other questions were poorly answered as well after checking against my friends' answers. I din even dare to count the mark I've loss cuz it would affect my mood to prepare for the following papers.

That subject is my elective course offered by Banking and Financial Management (often known as Baffin) course. It's optional, meaning I could actually choose other subjects offered by other courses at the beginning of semester. I insisted to remain in that class for 1 major reason - lecturer is good. In fact, he is one of the few lecturers in my school that teaches student step by step, assuming you have zero or little knowledge on financial world and provide clear and simple explanation that is so much better than the textbook.

I know definite that a grade B+ or B is not secured after the exam. But honestly, I dont regret taking this subject even now because of all the financial knowledge I've gained from him and the subject. Not to forget, Options, Futures Contract, Forward Contract and Swaps have eased my understanding on the financial derivative topics in my majors - Financial Economics2 and International Financial Economics ! Whee~ And I believe that knowledge is not limited to current semester or next semester only. Who knows I may engage into Futures Contract in future, if, if I'm wealthy?

Of course, it's pretty hard to take it at first, when only extra effort needed can my grade be pushed higher since carry grade (60% of my grade) is already B+ .

Therefore, to stop myself from unnecessary guiltiness that would affect my friends and my study mood, I've prepared myself to accept the worst ever grade I may obtain and told myself that the amount of knowledge absorbed cannot be measured by the grade obtained. Because the grade is not constituted only by that, instead, writing skills, luck, diligence and team members too. A grade is merely a pride to myself and my family. But I dont mean grade is not important k. At least the basic requirement 3.0/4.0 must be achieved before you can relax yourself in studies. Besides, employers emphasize on the employee's soft skills over your grade. Grade is like a person's physical appearance. We can predict his/her personality by the outer appearance and like him or otherwise but such prediction is not necessary accurate in all time.

Come back, I guess my current room and house is too comfortable to stay. Studying during daytime is unproductive than at night. Why? Let say I wake up at 8. Brushed teeth, bathe, had my breakfast it's already 10 something. 2 hours later I will need to cook for my lunch. After lunch brain functions slower and I tend to take a nap. After nap, ops it's evening, time for exercise. Dinner time after exercise. My most productive time is therefore after dinner time.

I've figured out that my concentration is low and easily distracted by the environmental factor. This didnt happened when I stayed in hostel. Maybe because the activity area in hostel is small, no streamyx, no cooking allowed and no other entertainments that forced me to study? Studying at home is often less productive. I guess because my current room is too comfortable? Haha, never knew comfortableness could be an issue of studying productively?

Things have pros and cons.

Done blogging today. I've changed my theme and chatbox since shoutmix no longer provide free service and the changes all lured me to update.

One more paper left.

Gosh, been thinking about my parents, grandma and friends when I was half way doing my Financial Economics2 exam this morning. Din know that I would miss them so damn much. This feeling is stronger as days to return are nearing.

Somehow I feel counting down to return or CNY makes time passes slower because times flies faster if we just let it be.

Good Luck guys in your remaining papers !

Drink more water ! =)

孟非老师的语录

2012-01-07T21:35:00.000-08:00

非诚勿扰的主持人 - 孟飞老师曾经说过，

一个快乐的人，其实也是有不快乐的时候，

只是，他遗忘的速度比任何人都快

10 年后会忘记的，现在应烦吗？

2012-01-07T06:54:00.000-08:00

不需要一件好事或幸运事的发生，

我们也能快乐，

因为它们不可能无时无刻都降临在你身上。

所以，

不该奢求和奢望，

而是抱着平常心去面对一整天。

每次都听到快乐是选择性的，

我也想天天快乐，但我的情绪不依我啊？

其实简单的，我们只要选择不计较、多宽容、明白一种米养百种人、多善待至亲至爱就可摆脱许多烦恼，而快乐也随之而来。

曾经读过一本书里的人物当面对烦恼时，都会这样告诉自己：

“这件小事我 10 年后还会记得吗？如果最终都会遗忘，那我现在就没有去惦记着件事的必要”

这就如同告诉自己：

-》算了吧

-》会过去的

-》会忘记的

相反，

发生过的快乐事是永恒地，就算几年后会忘记，可是那记忆偶尔会敲下你的脑，或钻进你的梦里，提醒自己原来曾经经历过这么快乐的事。

禅林后遗症

2012-01-02T05:13:00.000-08:00

昨晚回来了，

回到我 kingfisher 的家。

今早开始读了一整天的 International Banking。

但是，

到现在为止，我依然沉醉在 "寂静禅林 Santavana" 的跨年倒数与感恩夜的活动中。

当初从沙大佛友联谊会得悉有此活动后，

没考虑多久就立刻向负责人报名。

令我不假思索的，并不是倒数后可以观赏到的烟花，

而是，又可以上禅林了！

禅林是位于沙巴 Kota Kinabalu 的 Tuaran 山上，

距离 UMS 大约有 1 小时的车程。

第一次上禅林就爱上了那边的一切 - 包括环境、师父、师姐、师兄。

大家都是自愿上禅林帮忙打扫（称出坡）、煮菜、讲课、管理，

或许因为是自愿地，所以彼此没有利益关系牵系着，也没有你我之分，

有的，就是大家的一份心意。

选择在跨年时候办这活动，

除了倒数之外，更重要的是趁着 2011 年最后一天，感恩所有人在禅林还没创建到创建 13 年来的付出。

因此，沙大佛友联谊会用心地用纸杯排成 “心” 的形状，

再把小蜡烛放进去。

我很认同佛友会学员每次挂在嘴边的一句话 - “每次上禅林就是一次次的修行” 。

在禅林，大家的笑脸无处不见；

“感恩”、“谢谢”、“不用客气”、“不好意思”、“麻烦你了” 等也同样处处可听见。

师父的开示和开导，都是一次次对自己行为的检讨和反省。

只不过，每次从禅林回来，就等于回到现实的环境。

功课、考试、人事、电脑、科技等等导致杂念、贪嗔痴与烦恼的产生，促使我们忘了先前做过的反省。

只有在静下来时，才会回想自己犯过的错误，

但是，我也不是每次都有静下来的机会啊。

因此我答应自己，

2012 年，我要提高自己的人格休养，

我要做个能够给大家正面能量的人。

如果我一番心意给的劝告、意见反被你们骂，

没关系，我会学着不怪你们，

因为是我自己说的方式需要改善或因缘不熟，我不是说那句话的最佳人选。

刚刚路过一位博客的部落格，在他其中一篇文章中诉说他被播电话进来的银行顾客骂得很惨，最后那顾客甚至挂他的电话。

可是重点是，

他不生气，他反而笑了，

因为他在想究竟那位怒火冲天的顾客是否：

-- 健康不好

-- 与丈夫吵架

还是其他因素？

我很佩服这个人，被骂后却懂得体谅人家骂人的原因，而不是向其他同事朋友吐苦水又或者因此而退缩，怕接电话。

我想，他人格休养锻炼得很好吧？

再多一篇是他为同事和自己做了小卡片，内容是所有关于那银行的服务和最新产品。

要知道，他是花了多少时间去把公司电脑里的资料给抄下来，再把手抄笔记打进自己的电脑里，打印后，一张张 laminate，再把它剪齐。

或许会问，

为何不直接插 pendrive 在公司电脑然后 transfer 进 pendrive 呢？

我以前实习过的汇丰银行的电脑是接受不到 pendrive 的，是为了以防员工把公司庞大的机密 transfer 出去。

所有银行都应该有这项规定吧。

于是，他同事就问他，为何你不把 softcopy save 在 pendrive 然后让他们自己做小卡呢？

他只是一笑置之，因为他认为能在他能力范围内帮助人的任务，他都尽可能去帮。

换做是我，

我能不能像他这样呢？

我尽量。

请不用说，

这样做会吃亏，

因为别人快乐等于自己快乐，

别人和自己便利的同时，公司效率也会提高，因为员工不必大费心思去找书找电脑以获得顾客想知的资讯。

所以，

新的一年，

我们大家一起把好习惯保留，坏习惯改掉，

让我们一起蜕变吧！

It's about expressing your answer?

2011-12-23T07:33:00.000-08:00

You're hardworking,

You memorized the formula, concept, points, but you are wondering why lecturers are so stingy in giving mark?

Yes, your answers are correct. You hit the point, you provide simple examples, brief explanation.

But perhaps, you lack of analyses in your answer?

What is analyses?

For example, the question is - What causes inflation?

Your answer should go in this sequence:

Definition of Inflation.
Characteristics of Inflation.
Break the causes into few aspects, such as: high income, low interest rate, high exchange rate, high import price, natural disaster.
In each causes, for example high income, explain what causes high income(economy is good), the effect of high income(greater purchasing power), how does high income affect the person (can purchase more goods), the economy (demand for the goods increase), and what is the result for this (price increase due to excess demand).

Analyses is asking yourself the 4W and 1H: How, What, Where, When and Why. Of course, sometimes not all "W" are used depending on the type of questions.

I learnt all these in English Debate. I was once been commented as "no analyses on your points" and I asked seniors how can I improve my analytical skills. They told me to ask myself the 4W and 1H for every point.

Let say, the topic/motion today is "The IXA Act should be abolished"

As Government side, you should prove 3 things:

The dire need to abolish the act
The problem can be totally solved or reduced if the Act is abolished
Amending the act does not solve the problem.

After that, suggest a new Act to replace existing Act and list the criteria of the new Act that are deemed better than IXA. And prove that the Act can solve the problem better.

While for the opposition side, you must prove that

IXA has its value and feasibility
IXA can solve the problem without the need of abolishment
Abolishment of such act will create more problems.

Honestly,

I'm a bad memorizer. Dont ever ask me to memorize a list of terms because I'll forget easily and totally.

But maybe due to the debate script format of my answers, my mark is ok though I don't study much ?

Anyhow, I sincerely hope this helps bah.

I aim for knowledge gaining instead of higher grader but is blank when I were to answer questions from lecturers.

Study week officially starts !

All the best guys =)

Drink more water and sleep early.

Uncertainty

2011-12-16T17:28:00.000-08:00

I'm doing assignments, doing assignments and still doing assignments.

I'm studying, studying and still studying.

Honestly,

I have no idea what kind of job suits me, or i should say, i don't know what I want to work as !

What I'm doing right now in university is to gain knowledge and improve my soft skills.

Well, how bout my future career?

Will I be stuck in the same building, same department, same location for perhaps 5 years after graduation?

Is that what I always opt for?

I always told friends and my relatives that I hope to be selected as a management trainee in a bank, say HSBC.

Why? Cuz that's the ONLY relevant career I was exposed to.

Oh yea, I worked as Customer Service, Telemarketer, Nestle ice cream promoter, waiter, but I'm pretty sure I'm not heading back to them again.

University doesn't expose us much to the work life. It just equips us with as much knowledge as possible hoping it all will adapt us faster in our work.

But we do not know what our profession will lead us to?

You told us we can work in a bank.

Yes, financial economics graduates can work. But in fact, all graduates can work in the bank regardless of their field of study !!

So what actually distinct us from them when in the end of day, we all can work in the same area?

If that's the case, I don't necessary have to get into bank. I can work in a PR company, media company, or HOTELS and RESORTS !

I always have passion towards hotel, especially with beaches & sea.

Like Cherating Club Med, at Pahang if you ever been there.

I love travelling, because I'm not the type who can stand staying in the same place for years. Let just say, I'm not rigid & I hate rigid though at times I was, to secure our assignment grade and to not get into troubles.

I actually went into the job vacancies in Club Med website and starred the list of jobs offered for few minutes and, went back to my assignment research.

Uncertain.

I think I'll lead my way when time comes. Now is not the time.

It's still the time to stay focus on assignments and finals.

All the best guys !!

慈、悲、喜、舍

2011-11-24T23:15:00.000-08:00

我爱去佛法班，

因为每次去佛法班都是一次次对自己生活行为的检讨。

很多人对佛教产生误解，

他们认为佛教就只局限在拜拜和念经。

其实拜拜是表示对佛陀的尊敬；

念经是要我们弟子体会经的内容。

最重要的其实是去领悟佛法。

今天佛法班讲的是：

慈、悲、喜、舍。

慈心：给于众生快乐。也就是众生在没有痛苦活快乐当中，给于对方快乐
悲心：拔苦。也就是见众生有苦难，拔刀相助。含有救济心、悲悯心。
喜心：随喜。也就是赞叹与给于鼓励众生所得之成就。
舍心：众生平等心怀。也就是指冤亲平等，一视同仁（没起分别心）

我小组的组长 - 凯雯说过，

“ 一直以来我都认为慈悲喜舍只能帮助别人而已，但其实它们也同样帮助着自己。想想，有慈心得话，比人快乐自己也快乐；悲心的话，帮助别人等于善待自己；喜心，看到别人快乐自己也会快乐；舍心，对众生平等，就没有所谓的种族主义，阶层之别，或成绩之别，性别之别等等。最后，获得更多善报和开心的是自己啊！”

我非常认同这点。

如果人真的能实践全部慈悲喜舍，他肯定是圣人。

我们凡夫都是缺点一摞摞，容易起烦恼，所以佛陀的教义是教我们如何摆脱烦恼。

我希望自己能做到全部。

加油吧!

*纯粹分享*

深夜深思

2011-11-20T09:41:00.000-08:00

深夜了，

竟然会被无明的烦作乱我读书的心情。

想想，

其实我珍惜所有的真心话，

虽然刺耳且会对我带来少少的伤害，

可是我都会铭记于心。

难定下来

2011-04-09T21:37:00.000-07:00

我喜欢海，虽然它吞噬了不少生命体。
就像有些人喜欢驾车，可是车祸发生率很高一样。

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其实，我满想去靠海的大酒店做工。
比起在没有景色可言的 KL 做工，
去靠海的高级酒店做工对我来讲，很爽下。
放工后，可以在海边走走，吹吹海风，看看海，玩玩沙。。。。。

可是这些酒店好像不怎么需要 financial economics 的学生吧。

本来已经忘了这个曈景，
可是昨天走在 gaya street 经过一间建筑中的酒店突然这个念头又冒出来了。

我觉得我算是个可以很快适应一个地方的人吧。

只要给我一个月的适应期，我就不会想要离开了。

我爱玩，
所有我觉得好玩的事情都有可能是我作决定的主因，就像来 UMS 一样。

所以，如果有天我不是在银行或上市公司上班，而是在哪个 Pulau 或东海岸华丽的酒店做工的话，猜也猜的到，我是因为那边风景美而去的。

我不会去想究竟在那边的发展机会比较大，比较容易升职等普通人会考量的因素，因为我就是那么贪玩。

哦，忘了，如果待在那间公司较易得到去外国公干的机会，我也是会过去的。

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如果是酱，为何不干脆读 hotel management ？

因为我还是喜欢数学胜于理论。
如果三年都面对一大堆 theory 书，你叫我吃屎算了！

而且，我对分析股票，股价，债卷，公司的财运状况是很感兴趣的~
简单一句，就是金融有兴趣。

我对金融的热衷度胜于经济。
可惜现在读的，70% 都专注在经济上。。。
读得有点吃力，因为毕竟不是我头号兴趣。

所以，前不久我决定毕业后，去报读 CFA (Certified Financial Analyst) 。
听说是很难很难的课程，有三个 module 要考，考试是每半年一次。
据说最快考完的人也用了两年半的时间咧！
另外，也听说，有了这文凭之后，工钱会跳到 10k 一个月咧！
最后，听说全马大概只有 200 多人有这文凭吧了。
想当然的，supply 少，demand 多，所以工钱才会那么高吧！

基本上，我对很多东西都感兴趣吧~

只要我找到那样东西的好玩点，就可以激发我了 =D

也因此，我是个难定下来的人。

谢谢你们！

2011-04-02T04:54:00.000-07:00

前天上完课后，我被绑架去吃韩国餐，看戏，然后被骗去 Vinci,Ah Boon, Ah Chai & Charlie 的家倒数愚人节的来临。

哈哈！

早上时 ah hen 趁我在上课时问我的室友在不在房间，因为他要借我的 financial management 课本来做他的 Managerial Accounting assignment。
接着我就问我室友在不在房间，可是他不在，所以我又回 ah hen 说他不在。

我就没想酱多，继续上课（其实只是 presentation 吧了，哈哈）

直到我 ah hen 和　李馨在 vinci 她们的家我才知道 ah hen 为何要跟我借书。

其实他是要去我房间帮我收拾衣服还有日常用品准备去外面过夜，借书只是借口！哈哈。
这个高招，因为我后来才知道 =D

然后在她们家后，我真的手太多，很闷，然后开下他们冰箱。

开了冰箱后，我心里面 “哇“ 了一下，然后很假地随便指着她们冰箱的冰块东西，哇了一下。哈哈。现在想到还是很好笑。

装傻到很辛苦一下。

哈哈，不过我是很开心的啦！

当然也是很心疼，每次都要朋友为我的生日而破费，又请我吃韩国餐，又请我看戏，然后又吃蛋糕，买礼物给我。。。
很心疼咧！
也很不好意思咧！

我本来还想在愚人节之前告诉你们说我不要你们特地花钱，花宝贵时间在我身上，因为其实拥有你们的祝福啊，我就很满足了。
而且。。。之前有几个朋友生日都好像蛮临时才 plan 酱，有点敷衍的感觉，所以如果我的生日你们比较花心思去筹备，我会觉得很对不起他们。

还有一点就是，你们几个生日庆祝会我都没有去到，然后现在你们又替我庆祝，我多么不好意思咧。。。。不过，当然还要感谢你们啦 =D

讲真的啦，
我对我的生日没有期待感。
愚人节前夕我根本没打算出，因为我的脑袋一直想着要快点 gao dim assignment 然后草草过生日算了，可是，哈哈，却没有想到被绑架吧~ 还准备那么多东西 tim。

还有就是 Kayu, Jing, Kim，Lay Peng 和 lei heng 的白色外套礼物！！
真的很美，很刚我咧！
我很喜欢！！

谢谢！！！！

lei heng 还特地从 selangor 带来的。弄到我几不好意思一下。。。

还有 lei heng 也是，谢谢你的那个 erm， sponge =D 特地为我缝咧~ 你酱忙了还为我做这个东西，真的很谢谢！很不好意思啊！！

人家说 21 岁很重要，
哈哈其实我觉得还好啦，也不是酱 = ）

我许的愿望还蛮难但不是不可能实现，
就是要我家人朋友都永远开开心心。

总之，谢谢你们给我这个机会许愿，吹蜡烛，祝你们能实现我的愿望吧！

不好意思我没有拍到你们全部的照片 =D

（今天从寂静禅林回 UMS 的途中给两只乌鸦 shoot 到很够力下，我看我要反省一下好了~ 哈哈）

加油

2011-03-18T19:06:00.000-07:00

前天才知道我朋友母亲去世了，所以他飞回他家乡，没来上课。

他母亲其实躺在 ICU 一个多月了，而那段时间他还是照样带着好心情上课，赶 assignment，办活动。
在我们面前，他看起来是很乐观的人，可是换作是我，一定办不到。

每次想到他那段时间是如何担心他母亲我就很心疼。

他似乎把自己的担忧隐藏地很好，给我们看到的是他快乐的一面。

希望他尽快好起来，然后加油！

每次想起这件事就有点 down，然后很想念家人。

我是很幸福的。

Understand the difference?

2011-03-15T18:02:00.000-07:00

This post is specially written for U know who
You asked, what's the difference between Facebook, Twitter, MSN & Blog.
I can tell you, all these social networks are Different from each other, in the sense of their features, openness to public and functions.

Facebook
-> Very open to public, once u've updated ur status, photos, videos, change ur profile or photos tagged by friends, it'll notify the person u added as friends on their homepage.

** But, that's limited to person u added ONLY. If u dun add that person, he won't know whether about ur updates AT ALL ! This can be done by setting the privacy level in ur facebook account.

-> Good thing is you can chat with ur friends in facebook if both of u r surfing facebook. So even that person doesn't on his/her msn, u can still chat with him/her in facebook.

** But, you can also set ur facebook to "OFFLINE", if you find the chat box is irritating. Ur added friends cannot send u any msg if you appear to be offline.

- > And you can stalk us as well. A nicer way to describe this is u can know what's happening around us, like where we go, what do we complains, what problems we're facing currently once we update our status.

** This can be done by just adding us ONLY ! U dun have to update ur facebook, just see our updates and give comments if u want.

Well overall there r too many features to be listed out. What I can say for facebook is, if you think u need more privacy, then u choose to add people whom u noe n trust only. U can either set ur facebook privacy level high or low, it's up to u, dun worry about ur identity being exposed.

Twitter
I just started playing this last 2 months. Compared with facebook, Twitter only involved words n perhaps photos.

In facebook, we call "add friends", in Twitter we called "Follow", meaning to say, when u "Follow" someone, u r actually adding that person as friends. N u can receive updates from persons u followed. But if that person doesn't follow u, then he/she wont get any updates from u even though u update ur Twitter everyday !

- > Just like facebook, u can set ur privacy level for people to follow u. If u dun set any privacy, then people can just follow ur tweets (updates) by just clicking on "Follow" on ur page. In contrast, if u set ur privacy level high, then if people wants to add u, it needs ur approval. If u dun approve then he won't see ur tweets.

- > Twitter is all about updating status, means, u type what u want to type with limited of 150 characters for each update. No photos & videos involved, unless u want to put it as ur display picture la.

- > Twitter is cool, y? Cuz u can noe bout our politicians updates, news update, even health tips, jokes by just following them ! Politicians seldom update their status in facebook, but in Twitter, because Twitter has more privacy bah I guess?

- > U can post at ur friends' wall (if both of u following each other) when u feel like saying something to him/her. Best part is, the post can be seen to ppl added by u n ur friends. So if u din add another person, but ur friend added that person, that person can't see ur post at ur friends' wall.

** But u hav to be careful in this. That person can't see if u mention ur friends' name at the beginning.

For example, if u want to send tweets to me(post at my wall): @leeeuyang (followed by ur msg). Then that person not added by me but added by u won't see this, or added by u but not added by me.

But, if u put ur msg at the beginning and followed by my name, for example:

(ur msg) @leeeuyang

Then the person u've followed can see ur msg to me, but my friends(followed by me but not u) won't see this.

I think u r confused adi by all this. Haha.

To simplify, Twitter only allowed ppl to update status la.
If u dun add that person, that person won't see ur status update.
U can choose whether to accept ppl to follow u or not by adjusting the privacy level.
If u want send msg to me, then only those ppl added by me n u can see that msg. Others cant see.
But be careful that u must mention my name first then followed by ur msg.

Twitter has more privacy la for sure ! U can create a fake name also, not necessary ur real name, so nobody will noe ur identity.

MSN is about online conversation, I think u noe la.

BLOG is about expressing ur thoughts and feelings. U can set the privacy level in ur blog to be accessed by google, or to only people u invited by u to read ur blogs.

Actually rite, the setting can be adjusted, dun worry about ur privacy being invaded, cuz firstly, nobody would mind also, seeing ur updates, ur photos as if they will care so much (unless ur words r harsh n is related to them, then is different case la). The most people will just crap with you only !

Secondly is if u're so afraid, then just adjust the privacy level lor.

I update my twitter more often than Facebook. Haha, cuz my Twitter friends r few compared to Facebook, so I feel more secure in Twitter.

N Twitter is one of the sources for me to get up-to-date news from the stars, the edge Malaysia, The Economist and interesting facts by OMG facts, jokes from Lord_Stewin by just following them in Twitter only !

These social networks r created to bond all of us who are staying far frm each other together n also always stay contact with each other. If u wan to think it's harmful, then it is lo, but of cuz la, b4 u post something think twice first la.

投稿

2011-03-11T18:22:00.000-08:00

昨天妈妈打给我，说我收到两张 RM20 支票的稿费。她问，

“你几时投过稿哦？”

“ Err。。上次假期时候啦。”

“你投几次？”

“三次咯，两次中国报，还有一个是星洲。”

“Wah, 两个都中啊！我要叫你爸爸也投了。”

哈哈！

中国报是投 “心情分享”，所以很容易中。
而星洲是投 “社论版”，没有中是应该的，我这种程度去写社论，还不够班。哈哈~

*我想，是该调整我做事的心态，不能拖*

就酱

2011-03-09T03:22:00.000-08:00

我想说，

善良，单纯，成熟的男生，
决不会做些伤害女生的事，
因为女生的尊严比起男生的名誉来得更重要，起码在这个还是重男轻女的时代还是！

一个男子如果这样做，
可以表示他是蠢，
当然也可以表示他是故意设计阴谋来陷害那个女子。

不管怎样讲，
他都丢了男生的脸！

你根本不配去爱一个人！

就酱。

好乱

2011-03-08T04:03:00.000-08:00

因为利益，所以利用，
也因为利用，所以虚伪。

因此人可以为了利益而戴上虚伪的面具。

在大学拥有车的人不多，所以珍贵。

为了自己利益和便利，而故意对那个人好，所以最后釀出那么多祸。

虚伪的面具持不久，
因为虚伪的谎言会被揭露。

最后的结果是孤独，因为你把一直以来人家对你的信任感都摧毁。

如果我推算没错的话，
本来是好朋友两人，为了私自的利益而互踩对方然后取得男子的信任。

当然，这只是推算，我只是旁观者偶然听到这故事而已。

真实的状况，必须等到三人一起把事情谈好才能分辨谁是谁非。

或许，三人里面没有人是值得信任的也说不定。

可是，我特别希望她不是如此的人，因为她和我认识的她和听回来的她的落差太大太大。

这世间为何那么复杂？

因为真心对人的人少之又少。

人为何不能单纯一点呢？喜欢这个人就喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。
为何不喜欢却要装着喜欢，而明明喜欢却要如此对待那个人？

这是工作环境吗？
根本没有这么做的必要！

好乱。

我们引以为豪的。。。

2011-03-03T02:55:00.000-08:00

刚才在 twitter 第一时间发泄了，可是还是觉得不够，毕竟 twitter 的字限是 150 字。

今天我们每组必须 present 我们的 proposal。由于时间关系，今天只有三组可以 present。
接下来，看看刚才我班的人 presentation 的态度你就可以明白我们的大学培养的是怎样的学生。

例子一，

有一个人，当轮到他 present 时，他竟然在台上说：

“今天是我一个朋友的生日，我要祝他生日快乐。另外，我有一个朋友的生日过了，可是还是祝她生日快乐！”

（当然，是在英语）

然后，全部人鼓掌，包括我在内。
很好，当下每个人都很兴奋，你成功把气氛都炒热。

可是，又如何？
时间，地点，场合对吗？

你在台上的目的是什么？仅是宣布给大家听今天是你朋友　（也是和我同科系的）生日而并非　present 你组的 proposal 吗？

这不是你个人的演讲会，是要呈现你的报告给你的教授和我们听。
既然你要祝贺，你必须向大家道歉说会浪费大家少少时间，因为你要祝贺你的朋友。

可是怎样讲都好，这并不是个适当的场合来做这些东西！

而且你接下来 present 的东西，说实话，我根本就不明白！一时英文，一时国语，那个不用紧，可是重点是，你说的话没有重点！

例子二，

在另一组的 Q & A 时，我朋友向他们抛了一个问题：

“你们仅仅选 50 个 sarawak 人，足够代表所有 sarawak 人的心声，答案和知识吗？”

这问题很重要，因为他们做的　research 是 sarawak 人，而他们只用 50 人的 sample size。会不会太少人令到他们的 result 的可信度降低呢？

结果，其中一个组员回答，

“你这个问题非常容易回答。我们的 research 注重 quality 不是 quantity! 我的朋友的毕业论文仅仅是用 4 个人的 sample size 就可以了！”

（当然，这回答是在国语）

然后，全部人都为他鼓掌。

What the HELL ！！鼓屁掌咩！

我朋友又继续追问，

“可是你不觉得太少吗？50 个人来代表整个 sarawak 人？”

接着我教授插嘴，问那个人，

“请问你朋友叫什么名？”

他答，“这是 secret"

到最后他才说他那个朋友是我们的教授！

放屁啦！这分明是我们教授曾经和我们分享过她朋友写 phd 毕业论文只用了 4 个人作 sample size 就过关了的例子！他只不过是套用而已！还好意思那么嚣张去顶我朋友的问题。烂！

然后我教授就解释，

“如果你说只需要酱少人就可以代表整个 sarawak 人的思想，那么你就要证明给我看，谁谁谁在哪个 research report 或者 journal 说过在这种情况下，只要那么少人就够了，你的 research 结果才更有公信力。”

很明显，他只是乱掰一番。说我朋友的问题容易回答，可不见得你回答得很好啦！态度也很嚣张，很串，要不爽你都不可以！

而且，你们组的 slide 很多很多错误。连最重要的 research title 都会写漏一个字！况且是最关键的字咧，开玩笑！Research method 又写错，把 qualitative 写去 quantitative。他们到底懂不懂这两个的区别在哪里啊？

到底有没有放你的心去准备这个 proposal ？

例子三，

Present 不 present 好好来，不懂你讲什么。

这是另外一个人。

我的另个朋友问他问题后，他第一句就问，

“Name pls"

Walao wey，你是谁哦？

Astaga .... !!!

教授说过，问问题的人可以拿到 extra 0.5 分。
可是，你是谁来问我朋友的名字？

这是教授的责任，不是你的！

更好笑的是，我朋友还没报名字，我教授已经帮我朋友回答我朋友的名字，因为我教授认识我朋友的关系~

接着他好像不知要做什么般，不懂说什么，然后我教授就忍不住，喊了一声，

“ Answer her question la !"

他就翻翻他的 slide ，然后中间不知说了什么，我教授又问他，

"What is your sample size? "

他把 size 听错成 science，还要教授不断不断重复是 SIZE，"SAIZ or SIZE， not SCIENCE!" 他才明白是 size。

他才回答

" Kita nak kaji Social Science & SCIENCE students~"

还特地以为很搞笑般强调那个 SCIENCE 字！一点都不好笑！很无聊！

接着教授又问他们是用什么 sampling method，他听不明白。
教授然后一个个给例子 "U r doing which sampling method? Stratified sampling, Random Sampling or ... "
他一听 random 这个字，就直接说是 random，可是他其实根本不知道什么是 random sampling。

明显上课时没有听课！我记得教授特地强调 random sampling 不是你随便抽几个人来做 survey，因为那个叫 convenience sampling ！可以证明他们的 proposal 根本没有用心做！

*******************

如果我是教授，我一定气到吐血。更何况我只是台下的聆听者，我已经很想破口大骂了！

这就是我们引以为傲的大学生应有的态度吗？

不尊敬场合和教授，自以为是，傲慢，没有用心准备 presentation！

态度问题，而且不要说我有偏见，三个里面，两个姓马，一个则是土族。

好心，第二年了，你们还是要保持这种态度来毕业吗？

这种态度在大学生涯或许还可以混过去，
试试看出去做工，向股东做 presentation 时，突然宣布今天是你朋友生日（除非你祝贺的是其中一个股东），你老板开心吗？

又或者，开会时被人家 shoot，然后你自以为很厉害地说 “这个问题很容易回答” 然后随随便便没有根据地回答？

难怪我们教授说我们第二年的有 attitude problem。或许不是你们搞得，或许是另一帮惹的，也或许是我们不小心搞得。

总之，我今天很 sien 很丢脸看到我们的经济学生的这种态度。

我没有责怪你们英文差，但是你要有谦虚和尊敬场合的态度。

起码，在台上你必须是专业的！

Last year has gone.

2011-02-27T02:55:00.000-08:00

I remember last year was the busiest sem I've ever had because I joined English and Mandarin debates.

At the beginning of 2010, I was busy for Pesta Angpau as a AJK M.C.
I sacrificed my personal time and my studies a lot until my ex-roommate, Richard and Rosman said they had not seen me for quite some time. But padahal I slept in my room every night =D
The outcome for Pesta Angpau was great ! Until now I'm so glad for being a part of AJK program @ AJK M.C.

I was so happy that our M.C performed steadily on stage and when I browsed through CARI website for the audience's feedback, I was so delighted and touched when I saw more positive comments than the negative ones, which was less likely to happen for the previous Pesta !
When I compared last year's and this year's Pesta Angpau, it's a super big contrast, especially M.C part. *I'm not biased, it's true !* haha.

The English M.C last year - Chan Loong even smsed me after this year's Pesta Angpau, saying
"Don't say me biased. But I still feel last year's M.C team was great !"

His next message was even funnier,
" The english M.C reminds me of the Jusco car park ticket machine's voice ..... "

Haha, damn mean la!

Nevertheless, the friends I know in AJK programs. I remember practicing light bulb dance together .... meeting together ....

Honestly I din regret for being AJK of Pesta Angpau though I was really tired and desperately need extra time for my assignments !

While preparing for Pesta Angpau, I was elected as the AJK Protocol unit for Borneo English Debating Championship organized by my uni. I had to climb the super damn long staircase to get to the Canselori building to pass the invitation letter for our Vice and Deputy Vice Chancellor. Besides that, I had to walk to School of Social Science, Engineering School and Psychology School to pass the letter to the Dean as well ! It's not 1 time travel, it's few times because sometimes their Personal Assistant wasn't available. And I had to follow up to confirm their attendance.

Besides the tournament preparation, we also busy with our usual weekly debate training because we were participating the tournament as well !!

I'll never forget teamming with Brandon and Shu Fen and we managed to enter semi final, and lost to UIAM with slight margin =D

*And the adjudicator praised me even though I had these 2 super strong debators with me*

Haha.
That's the greatest pride I had in my English Debate.

* But sorry for the lousy Protocol job ... *

After that tournament, I was chosen (part of it was my willingness) to participate in the 全国辩论大赛 Inter Uni Mandarin Debating competition. We had a small conflict for selecting the debators. Because, due to budget constraint, our uni was only able to sponsor 4 air tickets to U.M out of 7 which comprised 2 backups and 1 leader. So the conflict was about selecting the 4 debators for the competition.

But in the end, we settled the conflict and had a torturing 1 month for the debate topic discussion. And I could remember how lousy we were when we had a friendly match against 2 chinese independent secondary schools - 崇正中学 & 建国中学. One of the teacher of 崇正中学 even insulted our debate level in a very nice matter after the friendly match. Funny was, after the "insult", she welcomed us to their function that night and treated us dinner. Anyway, thanks to her for giving us the chance to review our mistakes and lighted up our fire to prove her that we weren't that weak and lousy as what they saw in the friendly match !

Haha, even though her insults motivated us, we still lost in the first round to MMU (Cyberjaya). However, at least, we performed better than the friendly match with the 2 Secondary Schools. This time, I din get any praises from the judges. Haha, it's expected because when I watched our repeat video, I felt I damn sux. My rebuttal was like talking craps and pointless!

Anyhow, I learnt a lot in the Mandarin debates and I get to know many other debators in other uni~

Not to forget, during our stays in U.M, Yee Feng was our babysitter ! Haha. Yea~ I forced her to babysit us instead of other uni =D She somemore said,
"Be grateful that I've chosen ur uni not HELP University College because HELP got leng zai"
Haha.

****************************

That's how pack I was last year. I remember also, when Ah Hen or Lee Xin asking me to 1Borneo, my answer was a definite NO. And my reason will never escaped with either "English Debate", "Mandarin debate" and "Pesta Angpau".

When u asked me during that peak season of me about the latest movie , latest songs, I can answer u "I don't know" for sure.

I had a strong jealousy to my friends who did not join any activities at all and even able to watch drams in laptops. Ever since that, I told myself not to get much involvements on uni activities. It's time to focus on my studies and get more books from library to gain knowledge that are not taught in our course.

Looking at the present of me. I am and I was busy too, for that particular 2 subjects as we know. I prioritize my studies than activities such as: Program Motivasi and Keluarga Angkat at Sandakan and Family Day for my course during last sem. I don't sacrifice my time as much as I did compared last year. I did not give out my 100% effort as a AJK.

Ya, I was a terrible AJK. But at least I know what I hope to achieve for, which is my grade. Though first class - 3.75 is impossible, I hope to at least get 3.5 or above. Can I?

I'll work on it.

There are always losses and gains. I've got many friends last year and was lucky to get the chance to participate in 2 huge competitions. But what I sacrificed was my grade that dropped from 3.61 to 3.32.

What I've gained after quitting activities was the slight improvement on my grade, from 3.32 to 3.48 last sem. The average grade, CGPA is 3.46. Still, a distance to my target.

I've learnt to utilize the library. Not only getting high internet speed but also books that I always wanted to read when my time did not allow.

I have 1 and a half year ahead to graduate.

Though the ranking for UMS is low, we shouldn't let the ranking to be the deterrence factor to get a better job in future. We ourselves must improve whatever that awaits improvements. For me, would be knowledge, communication skills and English.

I hope to have a drastic improvements before graduation day.

Typing this post recalls my sweet and happy memories last year ....

I know I wouldn't get the happiness and satisfactions I got last year, but I will surely have the equal happiness somewhere.
At the meanwhile, stay happy and positive !

All the best guys !

I gotta head back to my tutorial homework and revision.

Emo and Sadness are a waste of time and energy.
I hope all of you who are currently reading my post will stop comparing yourself and others and grateful for what you have right now instead of thinking what you are not having.

It's not impossible to think like that, because it's all depend on yourselves whether you want to stay positive and negative and to decide your mood.

* 加油！*

接受吧

2011-02-25T06:49:00.000-08:00

当前方有颗大树枝阻碍路途时，
惟有低头，把身体弯下，再走。
如果不愿意低头而选择硬撞前方的话，
到头来，受伤的是自己。
因为树枝的生命力顽强，不被你鲁莽的举动而断成两半。

既然所谓的大番薯，大肚腩，变态教授是个生命力顽强的树枝，
而且当你碰上他，他会露出刺来攻击你时，
那只好把身体弯下一点，然后小心翼翼地避开他那无经意露出和无可预料的刺。

过了那关了之后，
也许未来会有更变态的主管，上司，老板，
而为了饭碗着想，我们也只能服从他们奇怪的要求。

就当作是给未来工作环境一个提前适应的机会吧。

既然他会继续教我们直到毕业是无可避免的，
所以我们就只能习惯，麻木，还有以软的方式来对他。

就算上他的课是痛苦的，他的冷笑话是一点都不好笑的，他的功课是变态的多，他的所作所为通常是不合理的。
没办法，明天还是要对着他。
所以，明天对着他时，
就假装自己很开心，
很享受他的课。

虽然假，
可是假得来，起码我们对他的憎恨也减少，因为我们已经接受这种教授，才会把自己伪装成很热爱他的课来避免被他折磨得更惨。
况且，他看见我们那么开心，或许心情变好，为我们加分也说不一定。

总之，
既然是无可避免的要碰上他，
那我们只好接受他，
再想办法如何减少被扣分的几率。

加油各位！

*被他折磨至于也是可以享受大学生活的*

莫名。。其妙

2011-02-21T16:39:00.000-08:00

因为我有读他规定我们读的 journal，
而且因为我是少数的，
所以我被莫名其妙地加了三分。

加加减减，我的分数还是是 -1。

还是不要高兴先，
免得等下又被莫名其妙地又被扣分。

平常心就好。

所以，还是要谢谢你？

2011-02-17T03:02:00.000-08:00

又是你，
浪费我时间在抱怨你！

如果我不抱怨我那股愤怒，无奈和失望的气无处发泄。

谢谢你让我很想快点毕业，
谢谢你令我更讨厌你，
谢谢你不断扣我分，让我拿不到 A，
谢谢你教书差，逼到我要自己用工读课本，
谢谢你让我知道，原来上课期间不能举手问稍微有点难的问题，
也谢谢你让我知道，上课间纠正错误是很丢你脸的事情，

所以，
我们到底还要承受多少花样呢？

我很想转学！

我很想快点毕业！

我不想屈服在一个没有逻辑，不合理，又小气的人之下。

可是，我还是被逼屈服。

不，
是我们。

我不明白，
我真的很不明白了。。。

我很辛苦。。

不好意思

2011-02-16T02:34:00.001-08:00

最近很糟糕，
看到小小不顺就很想破口大骂。
很没有耐心。

肯定是因为那个教授的关系。

惨！

如果得罪了你，
如果我的语气间伤了你，
真的很不好意思。。。

我会尽量控制自己的脾气。

也顺便在这几天锻炼我那不合格的 EQ 吧！

我讨厌你，但不想恨你

2011-02-14T16:50:00.000-08:00

我真的不想讨厌你的，
可是没有办法，
你那些无聊又不合理的行为却导致我讨厌你。

Kanasai
还有 3 个学期要对着你！

上学期我只是对你不满，
还没有到讨厌的程度。

可是你却有本事令我在这学期对你的印象升格为讨厌。

你以为我们不想 drop 你的科目咩？

如果有别的教授教你以为我们恨不得换咩？

上学期的关系，我们掌握了你奇怪的要求，
并且在这学期尽量满足你，
可是你的花招越来越多，
多到我们根本想破脑袋也不会想到你有酱无聊的举动。

无聊，
超级无聊。

你讲完咯，
分给你扣咯，
看到无缘无故的我们被扣分你开心咯，
把快乐建在我们的痛苦上，
你最爱的咯。

我讨厌你
可是我不想恨你，
希望你不要让它升格。

变态的人

*在我因为他而情绪不稳定时，不好意思，就暂时让他成为最难搞最讨人厌的教授吧！在我情绪不稳定的时候而已。。。抱歉*

我们抗议！

2011-02-11T08:08:00.000-08:00

变态的人，
只会给变态多功课，
然后乐着看我们为变态的人忙来忙去。

变态的人，
很爱帮我们分组，
把我们和朋友都拆散，
然后一定有姓马的和我们同组，
我不介意和谁同组，
只要他们肯出声，肯做事，而且做的东西是符合我们讨论的结果，
可他们很安静，
怎么办呢？

变态的人，
没有逻辑。
他总说，
为我们分组是因为以前我们自己分组时总有人投诉自己的组员不合作，没有做好自己的本分，
可是现在那些不合作，懒惰的人即使和不认识的人同组，
你觉得他们会比较有上进心吗？
结果也不是一样，
酱他的逻辑在哪里？

Hypothesis test fail !

H0 = All uncooperative or lazy group members will be cooperative n willing to do their work when they are teamed with unfamiliar ppl
H1 = All uncooperative or lazy group members will NOT be cooperative n willing to do their work when they are teamed with unfamiliar ppl

Method: 2-tail test, t test

Result: t estimated > t critical,
thus, H1 accepted.

I think he's trying this hypothesis testing NOW,
so we are one of the sample in the data.

But the result will still be the same,
H1 accepted.

所以，
他是没有逻辑的。

1 个 proposal，17 个 tutorial questions + 6 个 tutorial questions (Davey 和 Ah hen 有多一个 assignment) = 他的两个科目。

我们被变态的人玩惨啦！

Anthony Neely - Sorry that I loved you

2011-02-08T03:43:00.000-08:00

This song is really nice, I must tell u.
U guys must listen !

A english song by American and Chinese mixed guy in his first Chinese album that was deputed in November last year.

He was actually a challenger for the 7th season of Taiwan's singing competition - Super Star (超级星光大道）and he got full marks during his first performance.

And girls sure like him (my sister, for example, cuz she introduced to me, haha) cuz he's quite good looking. But that's not the point la~

Anyway I just want to introduce this song to you guys, because I find it quite catchy and Nice. Just nice. Go Listen la~

This song is "Sorry That I Loved You" by Anthony 倪安东

(omg now only I realized that I din mention the singer and the song title in the beginning of this post ! Haha)

Enjoy !

Scroll down for lyrics.

Anthony - Sorry That I Loved You

Lyrics：Anthony 倪安東/Skot suyimi(中譯/陶晶瑩) Composed by：Skot Suyimi

For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you think that i was worth the while

So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight

And I'm So sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love,for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
I'm so sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight

And apology now after all of this time

Won't make my difference tonight
But I'm hoping I'm Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

Quotes 格言和静思语

2011-02-07T07:08:00.000-08:00

刚刚看了不错的人生格言和静思语
然后抄下来，贴在靠着我书桌的墙壁上，
希望你们会喜欢。

-> 复杂的事情简单化，简单的事情重复化
（所以不要想那么多咯。。。）

-> 人生最悲哀的，并不是昨天失去的太多，而是沉浸于昨天的悲哀之中
（在乎的是明天，因为昨天已逝。如果昨天的悲哀是你的失败，那今天起，就要牢牢记住这个失败，而改进它，并不是沉溺于悲哀当中，钻牛角尖）

-> 时时好心，就是时时好日
（做好事能令自己开心，也能让受惠的人开心，所以天天都是开心日）

-> 前方无绝路，希望在转角
（这句很常罗志祥和大 S 的《转角。遇到爱》听到）

-> 不要说自己有多好，别人一般不会信。不要说自己有多坏，别人一般都会相信
（这句。。。有待明白其中的含义）

-> 所有的抱怨，不过是逃避责任的借口
（应该是对其他人的抱怨吧。。）

-> The climb steep hills requires a slow pace at first
(Agree !)

-> Of all parts of wisdom the practice is the best
(Practice on urself n others i guess)

-> You're happiest while you're making the greatest contribution
(It means, good deed)

-> One who understands much displays a greater simplicity of character than one who understands a little
(Kinda agree, when you don't understand in depth you'll tend to have many questions in your mind)

希望这几句会让你们领悟些东西吧~

Random

2011-01-29T22:48:00.000-08:00

Look at the transfer rate !
2Mb per second download leh !

But it wasn't constantly 2mb/s though ~

Still, thanks to the connection, I managed to download 11 episodes of 康熙来了 =D

Such a high speed can only be enjoyed on Sunday where hardly any student goes library, so I own all the speed ! Hehe.

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Was cleaning my house for 2 days, eldest brother gotta work, 2nd eldest brother and my sister aren't back yet. And mum needs to rush for her work before CNY, so end up, dad and I were cleaning.

I'm enjoying though =D

Cuz mum cooked nice dishes for us =D hehe.

Btw,
today is 超级星光大道决赛，hope our 2 Malaysian contestants especially 李佳薇 can get the first place.

Gosh, she's the first who almost had me cry watching her performance.

N btw, she's from UKM.

李佳薇演唱《勇敢》, this is the song I nearly got cried.

李佳薇 & 丁当 - What's up (A rock song, good combination with 丁当 )

Another Malaysian contestants, 陈珂冰 from Tawau,

陈珂冰 - 是否 (Hmm ... not that good but still ok .. )

陈珂冰 & 倪安东 - Lucky (Like this ！)

Enjoyz.

I'm going Kayu's hse to watch the final.

Sorry

2011-01-27T23:13:00.000-08:00

Sei lor ..

Very guilty cuz I've deleted all my group member's part of International Economics assignment and redo it by my own...

She sent me yesterday midnight (which was actually today's early morning). She smsed me that she can redo if her part wasn't relevant, but I was editing Fiscal Economics assignment so I roughly go through her part and replied her that her part should be ok.

But after I finished editing Fiscal, I combined her part, my another member's part(a guy) and my part together, everything seemed ... weird.

Our title was trade disputes, causes, effects, solutions and role of WTO for International Economics.

(Trade disputes is a disagreement on a international trade)

During our first meeting, we decided do it general, means we din purposely pick a issue as a subject.

But few days later my coursemate told me that article of a issue was a must as stated in the assignment guide by our lecturer, meaning we must focus in one issue. So we chosen the "U.S anti-dumping duties against Korea colour television".

This happened since 1985 to 1997 where U.S impose this anti-dumping duty so that the price for Korean colour television (Samsung & LG) was same as other brands in U.S.

So Korea brought this case to WTO dispute settlement body and so on.

This was what we supposed to focus on.

The guy (another group member) he in charge of Introduction, the girl (which I'm guilty to) on causes and effects and I on solutions and role of WTO.

The guy passed me his introduction yesterday night, and he briefly talked on the occurrence of this trade disputes, and my part was done 2 days before. I did everything on this issue.

But for her part, she did 50% on this issue and 50% on other trade disputes issues. I realized this when at 3 something midnight. I was thinking sei lor, due date is the same day but her part wasn't tally with ours .

So I just canceled off and redo her part. Since all the required resources were readily in my laptop, so redo didn't take long time.

But luckily I managed to finish in time la.

Just that she had already printed out her journals and articles but wasted cuz I've used none of them ...

And she really put in many effort for her part ..

Just that, it wasn't relevant ...

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Sorry ya ....

Learn if you don't know, don't use shortcut

2011-01-27T02:40:00.000-08:00

Google Translate again.
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I think such service is a disaster for those who r weak in English (esp) and always seek for shortcuts to finish their assignments in English.
Because they will tend to be overly dependent on google translate.

If you believe you can improve your weak english by translating from b.m/chinese or whatsoever language to English, then ok, just go ahead. Use it wisely, after you've translated, look back the translated words and terms, and try to search dictionary or memorize those words so that you can apply it in your essay or assignments.

But problem now is, they don't read the google translated documents.
They just copy their assignment which is written in B.M and use this google translate tool to translate, and copy back the translated documents back to their Microsoft word, save it, and pass to the Editor to edit.

They don't even read it, neither try to understand whether the translated documents have the same or at the least, similar meaning to the original document.

I guess even for the first sentence they will not understand as well.

And even you yourself don't understand, how do you expect the editor to understand what the exact meaning?

I appreciate your effort for typing everything, and getting the data for us, but you shouldn't use google translate to translate the WHOLE assignment of yours. And now it's my turn as the editor to suffer reading n reading n trying hard to understand what you want to express.

I understand that our group is unlucky for being the FIRST group to hand in Fiscal Economics assignment. And in the process of finishing, every Economics students received a International Economics assignments with the same due as Fiscal Economics assignment.

We are unfortunate because other students will have to rush for only INTERNATIONAL ECONOMICS assignments, whereas we need to rush for BOTH.

You have time pressure, I also have.
I'm the editor for both assignments .....

So please be co-operative and understanding.

You have never be a editor so you wouldn't understand what we hate to receive.

I would prefer you to write in your own words, no matter how poor you English is, at least you are taking the initiative to improve your English by writing more. And what you want to express in your assignment is more understandable to the leader or editor.

We are second year students and we have 1 and a half year before we face the reality of the world. So before you are out from protectionism, do something to improve ur greatest weakness which you know would affect your carrier in future. 1 and a half year can be short or long, depending on how you want to utilize it.

Why public uni's unemployment rate is higher than private uni? Because public uni protects their students, lecturers use B.M, exam questions B.M, in class also sometimes B.M, consult lecturer also use B.M and assignment also use google translate. Of course your english cannot improve !

Don't say me racist, but I hardly see bumi in my Japanese class (only band 4 and above are allowed to take foreign language in my uni), and I hardly meet bumi that can converse well in English. When we see you, we speak B.M also. In the end, our B.M improves, but since you use B.M most of the time, obviously your other languages especially English have no chance to improve.

I'm actually very surprise hearing my group members don't even know what is footnote, APA style and how to insert footnote !

I asked them, so who did the edit for you guys, they answered me "the leader"

I was shocked for the second time when one of my International Economics group member gave me "Wikianswer" as reference !

And when my another group member and I told him that the reference is not credible and insisted him to redo his part, he was a little bit shock and said "Huh, tak boleh guna ke?"

Astaga ...

I asked him who was the editor for his previous assignment, he said "leader saya la"

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But I'm still grateful because at least he has done something for the assignment, unlike my friend's group member who lied to my friend that he couldn't attend the meeting, and until now he has not done anything !

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Tomorrow is the due date for 2 assignments. And I'm still editing. Good Luck to myself and all of you.

Again

2011-01-24T05:48:00.000-08:00

Trade dispute,
Trade dispute settlement,
GATT,
WTO dispute settlement,
Uruguay round,

I wouldn't have interest or mood to read all these if this assignment was not assigned to me.

(Ops, I know I'll get scolded foul languages if I said this~)

But this is the fact that I must admit.

Terms such as WTO, AFTA, NAFTA are familiar to me because these are common terms used in English debate.

Even I've quit debate for almost a year, when these terms appears in International Economics assignment, it recalls my debate moments and somehow attracts me to further read any books which is relevant to World Trade.

All the best guys,
1 week to settle a group assignment that carries 10% isn't easy. Time pressure, resources pressure, page limit pressure (maximum 5 page) and lecturer pressure because he has gone back to hometown (duno who celebrate CNY la now, btw he's Malay), so we cannot consult him and we are forced to rely by our own and do whatever that fulfill his UNIQUE requirement for a assignment.

My topic is:
"Trade disputes, causes, effects and the role of WTO"

Unfamiliar issue for me, I've never came across the term "trade disputes".

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I do complain sometimes even in my heart I know that doing assignment is a better way to understand the subject more in depth. Though the process is not fun, where I have to carry my heavy bag with laptop inside and walk here and there because the library is huge and long, I've accepted it as part of student's responsibility and learning process.

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I don't know what am I saying adi, so jia you la.

I have 2 assignments to be handed on the same day, same lecturer, but different subjects.

天天好天

2011-01-23T04:17:00.000-08:00

小女孩问妈妈：
“Mummy，我们什么时候可以去看外公？”

妈妈忙着做工，带点敷衍语气回答她，
“新年咯。”

小女孩：“Huh 。。。那不是很久。。？”

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小女孩：“Mummy，人可以活到几岁？ ”

妈妈（还在忙工作）：“ Err 。。七八十岁吧。。”

小女孩：
“酱少罢了。
外公今年 60 岁，如果能活到 70 岁，而我们只能一年见外公一次，酱我们只能见他 10 次罢了？ ”

（我觉得很经典的对白，来自《天天好天》）

可是，
还有多少时间在人间是不由得我们来决定的。。。

超级赞的一部戏，
还没看的赶快去看！

抱歉和谢谢

2011-01-23T03:48:00.000-08:00

过去就算了，
懊悔也不能懊太久，
能做的是，
对应该感到愧疚、曾经扶助、鼓励和安慰的人更好一些。

对，
我的人生日记里又丰富了，
希望这个教训可以给后代一个很好的反面教材。

我，
爱我的爸爸妈妈。

才发现，
我最想得到的原谅，
是来自他们。

看了《天天好天》（前几天才在 1 Borneo 看到一班演员兼 MyFm DJ）后，
我更想念家人。。

(天天好天官方网站）
(天天好天 Facebook）

好想回家。。
有时很想快点毕业，
酱就可以不必一直为机票烦，
不用飞来飞去。

以为坐飞机爽咩~

（除非是做 MAS 的 Business Class 啦~ ）

好了，
谢谢你、你、你们，还有他们。。。。

我想，
我应该是个乐观的人吧？
要不然我现在还处在很深很深的懊悔里。

酱子好吗？
好吧我觉得。

Madagascar has a stone forest !

2011-01-17T03:04:00.000-08:00

I saw one interesting tweets in OMG Fact and I believe u guys will find this interesting too ~

Enjoy >

Madagascar has a “forest” that is made entirely of stone.

Well, it’s not actually a forest per se...but it’s really cool! Tsingy de Bemaraha National Park in Madagascar contains a gigantic limestone formation (called the tsingy) which is like nothing you have ever seen.

Ninety percent of the animals that inhabit this 600-square-mile refuge are species that can be found no where else on Earth!

Check out this photo gallery from National Geographic to see the unusual rock formations and wildlife that can be found in the "stone forest".

(Taken from OMG Facts and National Geographic)

寂静禅林寺庙大扫除

2011-01-16T01:57:00.000-08:00

原来自愿做一样东西时，
心情会自动变好，
因为事情是自己要自己完成的，
没有压迫感，
没有人在背后指使你，命令你，催促你，
一些都是自己心甘情愿，
抱着美好的心态去完成，
所以特别快乐~

就像做义工一样。

今天去 KK Tuaran 的寂静禅林寺庙大扫除。

大扫除虽然是很累的工作，
又要面对灰尘，蜘蛛网，壁虎粪便，
可是，不知怎么地，
就是觉得很开心。

虽然，答应要陪我去的 VINCI CHIN 在星期五时把鸽子放走，
然后丢下我跟不是很熟的沙大佛友的会员一起。
（Ah Boon 有武术不能怪）
可是即使是跟没有酱熟的朋友一起（除了 Su Ling 和 Yeh Wah) 我今天还是过得很开心。

寂静禅林位于山上，
风景优美，空气清新，还可以听到鸟叫声，
真是使心平静的好地方。

这是师父们每天早课和晚课的地方

这个寺庙还有很多只狗，
大概有 9 只，
有些是由主人送过来，
有些则是自己跑过来。
这些狗都吃素哦~
而且都很温驯，一点都不怕它们会咬你，它们反而更期待你去摸它和逗它

一闻到面包味道，全部都涌上来

最可爱最受欢迎的是 Golden Retriever （黄金猎犬），叫 Meta =D

它才 9 - 11 个月大，却是九只狗里面最大只的一只。

一直都很难拍到一张很美的照片，因为它不爱镜头

它很爱把自己浸在水里，所以身体总是湿湿的。趁机跟它和照。

这只忘了叫什么名，超级爹的，哈哈，

好几次我摸 Meta 时它就跑前来要我也 sayang 它 =D

这里的狗真是可爱啊！

感谢师父和居士们为我们准备超级丰富的早餐、午餐和茶点。

我看到早餐的时候，我哇了一下，
他们就说午餐更丰富呢！

果真很丰富，
不止有很多样菜，
还有 cheese cake 、cookies 咧~
爽~

当然，
最后我也希望 Vinci 和 Charlie 会后悔没有去 =P

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（开玩笑的啦）

大家都很开心 =D

下个礼拜这里还有活动，
我想去！！

2011-01-13T02:39:00.000-08:00

付出是抽象的，
抽象到你把它当一回事，
可是付出的人却当一回事，
他们在意你的珍惜和谢谢，
可是有时当你接受付出时，却当成理所当然，
而当他不小心忘了付出时，
你却责怪他没完成这个你以为 “理所当然” 的付出，
实际上，却一点都不是理所当然。

我们有时忘了每个人都有自己的极限，
每个人有自己的好或不好一面。

我今天可以包容你的缺点，
明天也可以包容你的缺点，
后天也可以，
可是我不敢保证大后天我也可以像今天一样包容你。

或许明天我心情不好时，
我会把你骂得很惨。

我听过一句话，
人脾气暴躁时，只有 5 岁的 EQ。

所以为什么我们要尽量保持乐观和开朗。
不只是自己能够保持开心，
别人也会被你的乐观和开朗给感染，而自己也跟着开心起来。

我也不希望看见身边的人每天苦口苦脸，闷闷不乐，想法很悲观和极端，
我会很显，很不知所措，不知道要怎样开导他/她。

保持微笑，不止是自己，也是因为为了看到别人笑。

人必须要时时反省自己，
一个人沉思想想自己有没有顾到别人感受，
有没有无意间伤害人家，
有没有令到其他人不开心。
如果有，就告诉自己接下来的日子不要再犯同样错。

沉思要一个人，
因为有时其他人不会跟你讲你做错了什么。

有时当别人导致我们心情不好，
我们要沉思而不是钻牛角尖，
我们要多想想为何对方会这样做，
多体谅他/她的感受，
这样才会开通，自己的心情也会好过些。

我相信恋人也是要互相包容，要各自反省自己错在哪里吧。

我们不能希望别人能够永远包容我们，
因为别人也有他们的极限。

但是，我却希望自己能够一直包容别人的有缺点，
告诉自己不能拥有像他/她一样的缺点，
然后，希望他/她能改进。

加油！

纯发泄

2011-01-11T19:26:00.000-08:00

呵呵，
你教我怎样做咯，

Economic Analysis for local and state government,

还要在 1 月 28 号交给你，

Sabah(state government) 和 DBKK(local government) 的网站根本就没有 financial report，只有那些 ucapan belanjawan 罢了，
你教我怎样 analyze 咯，

这些 gov. servant 贪污率酱高，你觉得他们会把他们的 financial report/belanjawan negeri 放在网站给公众看咩？

你教我怎样做这个 assignment 咯，

是你出这个题目的，
还要 30 年的 data 来 analyze，
siao 啊！！

找了整个早上才找到零零碎碎不完整不齐全的 data，
你教我怎样做咯。。

做到怎样好你都有办法找机会扣我们分，
无聊到死，
哪里有教授酱得空为了要看我们对这个科热不热衷，所以就特地在设定网上教学( lms )的 enrollment period，过了那个 period enroll 的学生就 enroll 不到，而且还要特地写enroll 不到的学生名字给他，然后就趁机扣我们分。

都不懂做酱多花样来做么！

A 又酱吝啬给，
A- 只有几个拿到而已，

tutorial 天又特地 set 在我们没有上课那天，还特地挑下午。

senior fail 他的科，叫他重开课教 senior 又不肯，
好不容易有另外一个教授肯教 senior，
他又警告 senior 如果去那个教授的课，他就 fail senior 这个 sem 跟他拿的科目。

无聊咯，
看，现在搞到 senior 要 extend 多一年咯，

开心咯。

如果我是教授，
我宁可花时间在我的 research 上，也不会想酱多诡计对付我的学生。

他们只「看字」,不「阅读

2011-01-06T18:21:00.000-08:00

好多人认识了字 , 却只「看字」 , 不「阅读」。

他们看路标 , 看证件 , 看各种说明书 , 但他们不「阅读」。

真可惜。他们明明有了翅膀 , 但他们只用这对翅膀搧风升火 , 对付生活。

他们不相信 , 如果把那对翅膀伸展开 , 他们其实可以飞翔。.........

这整段都来自蔡康永的博客
http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4c69db7d0100ncl3.html

偶然的际遇，原来只是激活脑细胞的辅助品

2010-11-26T08:01:00.000-08:00

偶然的相遇，
却是相隔好多年以后的事情。

被新的回忆重叠的旧时回忆此刻被唤醒，
她当年的脸蛋，
和我说过的话，
一起通信的日子，
相认之后的日子，
然后发生的转折，
直到渐渐减少联络。。。。。。

我初中美丽且特别的回忆，
虽然真的很短暂，
可是因为真的很不一样，
所以我依然记到现在。

也因为特别，
所以忘记也特别耗时。

我想，
真正放下是离开中学过后吧。

在那之后，
猩猩说过她变胖了。

其实，我心里面很好奇她变得有多胖。
猩猩问过我放下了吗，
哈哈，当然放下了咯，隔了那么久。

相遇，
竟然是意料之外。

当我拿着书踏进麦当劳，
就发现有一对眼睛注视着我，
我瞄了她一下。

好熟眼。

算吧，或许她仅是把我当普通路人一样瞄瞄吧。我心想。

再看看她多几眼，
她好像是。。。。。。。

然后她也望过来，对我招招手。

哦，真的是她。

接着 kim 也过来，她稍微指一指她。

“She?" 我问。
“Yes, she's studying for her STPM since this morning”

完全确定是她了。

她样貌有变吗？
说实在的，也没变多少，只是长多一点肉而已，并没有如猩猩描述地那么夸张。
如果没有变多少，那为何我需要时间来认她呢？
我，不知。
也许是心里面想把那段即甜又遗憾的回忆给尘封吧。

我们并没有在一起过，因为我是被拒绝的那位。

隔了许久再重逢，
说实在的，我不断想，或许是另一个开始？

好蠢的想法对吧？

我很想问她，她是读理科还是文科，如果是文科拿得是什么科目，想进什么大学什么科系。
我也想告诉她，我也是 STPM 的过来人。
也曾经在 SS17 高中待过几个礼拜。

我想上前，
可是勇气很吝啬。

眼睛看着桌上自备的书，
可是脑袋却把注意力集中在上与不上前的问题中。

幸好，到最后，kim 陪我去问候她的近况。

从她的眼神中，
我看得出她已经把以前的甜回忆给忘记，
应该说已经不在乎了。

我庆幸自己有上前去问候她，
要不然我想，我回到家又会乱想一番的。

可现在明白了，
旧时的甜蜜回忆，是过去式，
人不应该去把以前可能会发生的事情搬到现在来讨论它会发生的可能性。
因为一切不一样了，
她有她的经历，
我也有我和她不一样的经历。

也许当初一厢情愿是我，
可是我还是觉得那回忆是特别的，甜蜜的，
要感谢她，
起码今后再次想起时，嘴巴露出的是微笑 =D
我拥有的是，不平凡的回忆。

到现在，
我原来还可以记得她的名。

刚刚在 facebook 找到她，
但是并没有打算 add 她。

我觉得，今天之后，我应该很难见到她吧。

也好，
要来的自然会来。

该和谁系上红线，
不由得我们来决定。

该来得就会来。

此刻，
什么都不要多想，
往我的目标冲吧！

想要听故事的，
私下找我吧。

我爱我的家

2010-11-25T19:12:00.000-08:00

平平静静地回家，

然后又和傻婆妹妹顶顶嘴~
和她抢放 laptop 的位置，
那个死人头每次都不会让点位给我的 laptop，整天都是霸完整个桌子，搞得我要另寻小桌子来摆我 laptop。
顺便报告，她的豆豆惊人地变多了~ 哈哈。
我的脸和她的有满强的对比 =D
她够力哦，
连粉刺都不懂是什么。。。。唉。。。我这个男生还比她 pro tim，真的要多些 UMS 特别是 Kelly 还有 lei heng 的劝告。
kelly 是很恐怖的人，
因为她几乎所有牌子的洗脸霜都试过~

妈妈（はは）和爸爸（ちち）
依旧可爱 =D
今早爸爸特地买油炸鬼~
妈妈为了迎合我每天早上喝茶的习惯，
特地选了很香很香的香片茶泡给我，
而且我一个人喝完整壶的茶，够力！

大哥还是那个样啦，
喜欢窝在他房间（也就是我的房间）看戏上网。
电视播戏时才下来和我们一起看，
那个死人头啦~

二哥在新加坡国立大学没有回来，
他明年 5 月多毕业咯~
现在应该在忙他的 project 呱 ~

。
。
。

我还是喜欢日本戏~ 哈哈
看了 Code Blue (急救飞机紧急抢救）第一季，
真是 SYOK 啊！！！！

故事是环绕在一家拥有直升机的医院和 4 名实习生。
马来西亚医院应该没有先进到有直升机吧~

当某一个地方发生事故涉及好多受重伤的人时，
利用救护车来一个个送受伤者去医院相当耗时，
因为总是车水马龙，而且道路上的车有时也不会让下救护车，
所以很多伤者在被送到医院的路途中就已经逝世了。

因此，直升机的存在就大大减低了死者的人数，
因为在直升机去事发地点时，它是载着几位医生的。
医生到现场时，有时因为伤者情势严重，必须在第一时间做出判断，甚至情况所急非得要立刻在当场开刀。
医生犹豫的时间越久，伤者的伤势就会加重。

里头有一句对白非常震撼，

“医生是把病人从死神夺取多一点时间而已。
可是，这一点点时间，对伤者人生的意义非常大”

看到很多伤者的不幸，
真的会让自己觉得其实什么病痛都没有的我们，是很幸福的。

2010-11-22T04:53:00.000-08:00

日本語を勉強します　

ここは寒いです。

Sabah の食べはあまりおいしくないです。そして　高いです。

ｋｋ　はきれいな町です。

But, (haha, sorry I duno wat's however/but in Japanese)

わたしは　selangor がすきです。

わたしの友達はいい友達です。

大学の生活は忙しいですが、楽しいです。

UMS はきれいな大学です。

わたしの学部は　SPE です。

わたしの寮はにぎやがです。

毎日　Malay はたばこをすいます。

わたしの友達は元気ですか?
わたしの家族は元気ですか？　

わたしは　１１　月　２５　日に　selangor へ　帰ります。

　
Pls allow me to write japanese sentences in my blog~ All these r simple sentences la~ Not many things can b expressed~

我要 short duration 的工！

2010-11-18T17:11:00.000-08:00

最近读书读到 sien 时，我就会去 > Asiaparttime.com 。。

对，我又开始找工了。

当然，
是短暂的工，
就是那种 event promoter 啊，sampling promoter，
就两三天，一两个礼拜那种工吧。。

真的受不了在家无所事事的日子，
很空虚，
很 sien。

哈哈，
不过我知道我每次假期都做工，
搞到要和朋友喝茶，出街都难。

可是出去用的是父母钱，
怎样都会花得很心疼。
所以想找找那种短暂的工，一天能赚 70 80 100 块的工。。

其实我很想去 PC fair 做的，
但是又没有 contact，唉z ~

还有两科，
加油吧各位！

无聊

2010-11-17T02:06:00.000-08:00

死。。
这是什么心情？

迫不及待买衣，
迫不及待回家，
迫不及待找短暂的工，
迫不及待找朋友聚一聚，
迫不及待和家人相聚，
迫不及待亲亲我亲爱又可爱的婆婆，
迫不及待想着要把什么东西塞进行李，

还有。。
想快快结束考试，

里头还参杂了一点点，
真的是一点点。。。。真的一点点。。。要放弃考试的心情，去看戏。。

残！

每次望着考试时间表，
心里面就一直盘算着自己这学期可以拿到怎样的 CGPA 。。。
原来杞人忧天是酱。

最担心的就是 Japanese 啦。

虽然 2 个 credit hour 而已，
不过如果你仔细算算下，
它的影响蛮大的，
从 C 到 B，对于 21 个 credit hour 来讲，
它占了 CGPA 的 0.1 咧！开玩笑！

知道 0.1 有多恐怖吗，
CGPA 3.3 和 3.4 是不是有差？
3.4 和 3.5 是不是差很远，虽然只有 0.1 之差？

。。。。。。。

担心明天的 Econometrics 比较实际。

12 星座之告白

2010-11-06T17:42:00.000-07:00

不懂做么，看了这些短片很想分享一下。

短短的，还满有意思下。。

感谢 Ivy 的分享~

这些短片叫 “清蜜星体验”，内容是描述 12 星座男女不一样的性格特征，要如何做才能和平相处，白头偕老。
基本上，12 个短片所诠释的故事都不一样，可是全部的角色却又是有关联性的。

全部短片平均是 6分钟。

我就喜欢这短短而且蛮有意思的短片，
它不像连续剧那样让人上瘾，
何况剧情不复杂。

看了会有温馨的感觉。

知道监制是谁吗？
就是，鈕承澤，
《艋舺》的导演。

希望大家在头痛于读书之余，能在休闲时刻看看这些影片，让自己心情好些，然后再钻进书里~

大家考试加油！

第一集 - 牧羊男和巨蟹女

第二集 - 金牛男和狮子女

第三集 (上）

第三集（下）

第四集

第五集

第六集

第七集

第八集

第九集

第十集

第十一集

第十二集（大结局）

Good Luck

2010-10-30T03:41:00.000-07:00

Hope you don't find this post gross.

Hehe~

Just want to show my teeth to you guys.

Many people have questioned me, "Why u put bracer? Your teeth not nice meh?"

When u look at my teeth now, it is arranged nicely, no bunny teeth, no tiger teeth =D, my teeth is perfect despite the bracer steel on it that makes my teeth imperfect.

Today, out of sien-ness of studying Marketing, I browsed through my old photos, and found a picture of my teeth just put on bracer.

And I compared it in mirror, walao wey, huge difference wey !

This is before > Took this right after the bracer was put on my upper teeth.

And this is current condition of my teeth. Nice leh? haha

I made an appointment with the doctor on 5th of December for bracer removal. Actually I could remove it in the past raya break, but doctor wasn't free as he has few appointments awaiting him that day. (Government clinic ... So ... never mind la)

I hope, I really hope, this time, my bracer can be removed ...

I've been wearing this for 2 years and 9 months.

I could still remember 31st of January was the day my teeth couple with the bracer.

Yea, this coming holiday. I don't want to wait any longer to remove the bracer !!

Anyway,

Happy Birthday Josh and his dad !!! Can't believe their birthday fall on the same day !!! walao wey !
Sure had fun la today.
Go Extreme Park at Shah Alam for PAINTBALL, ROCK CLIMBING AND FLYING FOX for only RM75 !!!!!!!!!!! Reasonable leh guys !! A9, Can we go there in this holiday ? Please ... hehe
Somemore had ur birthday celebration there, cool !
Now u go back home and celebrate for your dad. Haha.
All the best la.

And to another friend,
Take care and stay positive !!
Exam more important !

All the best everyone. Study week is meant for STUDY HARD AND SMART !

Unsavoury，开 facebook 啦。。。

2010-10-26T18:10:00.000-07:00

突然很想念 unsavoury leh。

其他朋友都有 fb，所以都不怕不了解他们的近况。

unsavoury 啊 unsavoury，
都没有在我 blog 留言,
更没有在 fb 留言，因为你都不愿开，
而且又没有 Sms 哦，
都不懂你最近发生了什么事。

其实 hor，
fb 你可以开，
然后你可以只是 add 我们几个或者你熟悉的朋友 as friends，
如果人家主动 add 你，酱你不是 ignore 人家啦。

重点是，
你 add 了我们之后，
你可以在我们的 fb 那边留言，
留言我们谈过的话，
废话也好，
心事也好，
至少你也了解我们发生什么事吧。

如果你觉得我们做得不对，
还是你有另类的意见也可以在我们的 fb 那边表达吧，
因为有时我们也不会在 blog 表达的。

你可以开 fb account，
然后不用真名，
什么照片也不放，
关于你自己的个人资料也可以不用放，
只要告诉我们这是你就可以了。

你不放照片，
也不放个人资料，
不怕你的隐私被侵犯吧 ~
是不是？

所以，
开 facebook account 啦。。。。

我只是针对这件事而已，不要误会。

2010-10-26T16:56:00.000-07:00

以前看过一句话，

“你没有资格说一个人的人格有问题，因为你也没有多高尚”

我们问下自己在说其他人之前，
自己有多圣洁？
自己有多清高？

有吗？

其实我们和一般人没什么两样，
我们又不是哲学家，也不是和尚，不是 brother，不是 sister，
不是智慧高于他人，
所以，我们可以说其他人的品格有问题吗？

就算是哲学家，和尚，brother 或 sister 等拥有比较高的智慧且也比较圣洁的人，
相信他们也不会说某某人的品格有问题。

所以现在我感到内疚，
如果我曾经说过或想过某某人的品格有问题。

对，
他做得不对，
真的很不对，
还嘲笑你们，
还把照片归纳为“这里面都是垃圾”，
甚至和他的朋友一起嘲笑你们，
很过分，
我也替你们感到生气。

可话说回来，
在他嘲笑你们的时候，
他并不知道网站是你们的啊，
他认识你们，
他也知道如果网站是属于你们的，他还嘲笑，岂不是自找麻烦？
因为他 fb 有 add 你们，
如果他知道照片是你们的，
然后他还酱光明正大嘲笑你们，不怕给你们知道咩？
肯定给你们知道啦，因为他都有 add 你们几个。

算，
就算是其他人的网站他也不应该这样，
超级不应该光明正大嘲笑别人。

可学佛的，
不是更应该了解什么叫宽恕吗？什么叫放开吗？

来问你，
报告了，
对你对你的组有什么帮助？

或许能出一口气，

请问，
那又如何？
会改变到什么？

人家做到不对，
我们更应该宽容他，

一个人当众说你是非，数落你，
难道你下次也跟着数落人家吗？
你明知道人家酱做不对了，
为什么还要跟人家一样做不对的事情？

你知道不对，因为这样说人家是非是造口业。

佛教不是这样教我们吗？

佛教有教我们把事情复杂化吗？

佛教有教我们去报复吗？
去讨厌一个人吗？

佛教不是说，只要那个人了解自己的错，忏悔了，那还要计较什么？

我不懂他忏悔了没，
我只知道他知道自己是错的，
要不然也不会把东西删除。

我只知道，
我不赞同他的做法，
也不赞同你的做法。

什么叫过了就算，
继续算，
然后你就继续浪费时间去恨，
然后你也就去浪费时间追究。

有那么多时间去浪费，
倒不如去花那时间去做好事？去看谁需要你的帮忙去帮，造功德，
总比这样不利己，反而为别人添加麻烦事情，更好吗？

还有，
什么　“盗版不盗版” “版权”　的问题。
如果要追究的话，
你问下你自己，你 blog 的照片是自己拍吗？
如果不是自己拍，而是从另外一个网站拿来的，
那你自己也不是错了？

请在说别人之前，
先想想自己有没有这样做错过。
我知道很难，不过，学　！
我们是学佛的，
要不然，你会很光荣告诉其他人你是学佛，学佛陀的做人准则吗？

再来，
有些东西，真的不用复杂化。

我们现在是学生，
我们现在是在做 assignment ,
我们没有真的在开一间网络公司，
因为我们网站写明 “for educational purpose” 了，
既然是在做 assignment 而已，
需要谈论到 “版权” 的问题吗？

“版权” 是要经过申请的，
我们既然只是做 assignment 而已，
就不必要涉及到版权的问题。
既然没有涉及，就不应该谈论版权！

我想说，
之前我是觉得他做得很不对，
因为那时我并不知道他不懂那是你们的网站，
现在知道他并不知道了，
我觉得他做得不对，但没有很不对。

你们那时可以说 “他可以私底下找我们嘛。。。"

可是看看现在，
你们也没有私底下找他谈咯。

还有我想问，
你举报时，
是抱着什么心态？
替组员出气的心态？
不要告诉我，你举报时，完完全全没有一丝报复的心态，
回到原点，
佛教有鼓励我们报复吗？

所以你们自己想你们做对什么吧。

在我眼里，
你并没有做得很对。

人格问题，
一张白纸被占了黑点，
你就因为这黑点讨厌这张白纸，
然后不断不断地把黑点放大，
之后渐渐忘了去注意黑点以外的白色。。。。。。

或许可以讲说我并不体谅你们当时的感受，
可是，体谅了，也未必要站在你们那边吧，
因为在分析每样事情时，都要一个 “旁观者” 来个中立的思想，
要不然你们只会钻牛角尖，越钻越深，
到头来只钻到一个恨字。

对事不对人，
我只是针对这件事而已，不要误会。

我上面的言论也不完全对，
你觉得对的话，请开枪。

那里得罪你们，我现说声对不起。

2010-10-23T03:38:00.000-07:00

等我毕业后，找到工，
请记得提醒我要助养儿童。。。。如果我忘记的话。。。
一个月 50 块并不多。。
可是却足够改善他们的生活环境。。

现在不能，
现在正依赖着政府钱和父母的零用钱，
如果现在助养很怪，
感觉上是政府或者父母助养酱。

我想念饥饿 30 。。。

为什么沙巴没有这种活动呢？
每次西马饥饿 30 的日期刚好我已经在大学了，怎样去哦？？

我需要类似饥饿 30 的活动来不断提醒自己有多么幸福。。。

知足就会快乐 =D

Can I get better grade this sem? Please ..

2010-10-19T07:12:00.000-07:00

Japanese marks always disappoints me ..

Tomorrow will be having oral test.

I just don't understand Japanese.
I don't know how to study effectively so that I can still get a more satisfying mark.

I seriously have no idea wey !

Everytime I think I prepared well,
but the moment I got my mid term mark, it's just so bloody terrible !

I failed for my mid term, AGAIN !

I mixed up yomimas, kikimas, nimas, kakimas, kaimas !!
I was blanked in the hall.
I rubbed the essay and rewrite it, n eventually I got no time to finish the essay.
Serve me right, who asked me to rub it off ?

I thought I've prepared well.
I thought the mid term was kinda ok.

2 times I've been getting this disappointed result !!

It's not hard, really not hard. But I don't know why I just can't get higher marks !!

This sem, I purposely choose other sensei because I'm guilty to see my previous sensei that really dedicated in teaching us ..

My current sensei also the same ... The moment I went beside him to see my mid term grade, I was shocked until the max. I even "HUH !" loudly.

Shit result again.

I realized that I cannot study last minute for this subject. Seriously ...
Unlike other subjects, even though last minute study, I still able to score quite ok ...
But it'll never work for Japanese !

I love japanese, honestly ... But to obtain the grade I want, it's stressful.

Tomorrow's oral test has been haunting me since last 2 weeks .....

I know I'm gonna be nervous tomorrow .. I just hope I can at least remember every vocabs I still able to remember right now.

I don't want to be blank tomorrow.

And I don't want the oral test to further pull down my Japanese grade.

Even though the oral test is only 5 minutes ... it's managed to haunt me for 2 weeks man !

Last 2 weeks, the moment I wake up, I thought Japanese oral test will be held in that week, I was so relief that it wasn't, so that I got more preparation time.

I'm just afraid ..

Dr.Vivin (Human Resource Economics lecturer) that day entered our Econometrics class and told us that in order to be employed in public listed company, our CGPA must be 3.33 above.

And I'm more stress now .. trying to push up my CGPA in this sem due to the disaster from last sem ...

Mid term sux.

Marketing C+ ??!! Ok la, I admit that I din study much, I don't like to study textbook, cuz everything seems so general, that's why it's so hard to get everything into my head.

Information system C+ ??!! Ooi, I studied for 3 times for each chapters leh !! walao ..

The more ok subjects are Micro2 39/60 for mid term (luckily our assignment got A even though we got B for presentation =D ), Econometrics B- (But I'm not satisfied with my mid term result cuz the questions weren't as hard as I expect to be), Statistical Economical Analysis A- (this wan super gai dou, really got no idea how I get this grade).

But anyhow ... I should put tmr's oral test as the top priority now.

Jia you guys !!

My pressure is overwhelming me ... day by day ...

I'm just complaining to release my stress ...

You are right

2010-10-14T05:33:00.000-07:00

I cannot understand your logic, sir.

Y must u make our life miserable?

Y surat pengecualian must be given after a week of our absence ?

As long as we got the proof for our absence, isn't it enough, SIR ?

Why are you so particular with the surat submission date?

Does it make any difference?

The fact is, WE'RE ABSENT ! And we just got our letter perlepasan kuliah ONLY !
You took the letter and said,

"I'll accept this letter with the deduction of 2 marks from your total marks"

WHAT THE HELL !!!!

Unreasonable !!

You think letter no need time to process ar?
You think so easy to get the chop from the dean for our exemption letter?

It needs time OK !

It's not like our Pengarah is not doing anything !
She did ! But they required the activity report and financial report in order to process the letter !

Why can't you, can't you accept reasons from us?

Why do you always think we're lying?

How well do you know the uni system?

How updated you are with the current uni system?

You are not the one urging for our letter, how would u know the standard time to get the letter?

You always do things based on your own understanding and assumptions !
You never think that you're wrong.

N you enjoy seeing our marks being deducted by YOU, YOURSELF !

Sir, we have done nothing wrong ok !

We didn't raise our voice when we talk to you;
We never disobey your order, we always hand our homework in time, PERSONALLY !

I just don't understand why must you be so particular to us ?
Over particular in fact !
Too much !

I seriously don't mind getting overloaded homework from you, at least I can understand the subject better.
Really.

You are a dedicated lecturer,
I can feel that, you always remember our name.
You always want us to see u personally if we don't understand any chapters.

But, you are too much SIR this time.

Even my MC was passed to you the following week,
and you said I should pass earlier,
and since i've passed up late, u‘ve deducted 3 marks from me

How early you want me to pass to you?

Now I've figured out, it's the next day.

So total, I've been deducted 5 marks from you, just because I SICK !
Just because we didn't manage to get the exemption letter early to pass to you.

We're wrong in your eyes.

Please define what is meant by correct in your perspective. I'm curious to know.

我也替你不爽

2010-10-14T05:00:00.000-07:00

其实我还蛮替你感到气愤的。

知不知道其实你们有时不是不会，
是你们不肯学！！！

简简单单的 FootNote，上次又不是没有同组过，
既然同组过，
酱那时在 facebook send 给你们 “怎样做 footnote” 的 message 为什么你们没有读过？

不要讲你们没有看到 msg 这种废话，
你们自己也不是在我们 send 的 msg 之后 reply 我们 "Ok" 吗？

Ok 就是你们读过，你们明白。

如果不明白为什么不当场问我们？

很难吗？

SEM 3 了你们还不知道怎样做 footnote 到底羞不羞耻？

那你们上几个 assignment 的 footnote 是谁帮你们做？
是你们的 ketua 吗？

如果 ketua 没有交代你们要怎样 quote reference，酱是他的事，不能完全怪你。

可是这次他已经 send 给你们很详细的 footnote guideline 了，
你们有借口说你们不会吗？

那他和她花那么多时间 type 酱多东西不是给你们看给谁看？

你们很大胆哦，
看了之后 reference 敢敢只给 website 的 link 哦?
然后电话拨过去 ketua 那边，用很好听的说话语气对 ketua 说：

“我不会做 footnote 哦，你帮我做啊？谢谢！”

就这样不到 1 分钟的电话，
你们就可以把所有责任推给 ketua 去 edit，去烦，去牺牲他的时间帮你们做 reference ，去牺牲他们睡眠时间，去牺牲他们可以读书的时间，去牺牲他们可以赶另外一个 assignment 的时间为的就是大家的好！
因为 assignment 是大家的！
不是他一个人的！
你们可以忍心看着他 edit 的时候受折磨吗？
不忍心的话，为什么先前不要把你们那 part 做好好来？

当然，我不只是指他的 groupmate 而已。
你们自己明白谁没有把 footnote 做好。

还有你们另外两个，
就算那个 facebook msg 不是我 send 的，
就算我不是 ketua,
就算我还当你们是我满要好的朋友，
抱歉，你们真的太过分，
你们问问自己，ketua 叫你们去看 facebook message 多少次？
每一次你们哦，哦，哦了之后有看吗？
为什么连我都对你们发火了之后你们才去看，才去讲：

“哦，原来是酱容易的？”

合理吗？

但是，幸亏你们现在明白怎样做了。
只是，现在看到他的 groupmate 令到我想到前几个礼拜的情景。

而她的 groupmate，我真的很气！
我完全可以想象如果我是她，我该会发多恐怖的疯！

你们两个，知不知道她赶了两个晚上，睡没几个小时，可是还是赶不完啊?
昨天交她和你们的 assignment 那天，她走进班时，我整个人吓一跳。
她看来很憔悴，
幸好今天好了很多。

那你们对于她的牺牲有感激过吗？

我看得出来，你们有一点抱怨的成分。

那想问你们，如果你们真的抱怨，
你们抱怨些什么？
抱怨她 edit 得慢呢,
还是抱怨你们的那 part 做到不好使到她 edit 得慢？

我很希望你们是后者。

拜托你们，
可以谅解一下 editor 吗？

这篇是从 first sem 开始就已经累积的不满。
所以里面的火药味很重。

如果那里你觉得不对的话，请开枪。

不过开枪之前，
先问问自己有没有做过 edit ，
还有你们有没有把自己那 part 做好。

Pls understand the editor

2010-10-11T18:11:00.000-07:00

I'm suffering ...

The feeling of forcing urself to edit assignment when u r sick is terrible ...

4 days I've been editing the assignment ...

Editing means not only edit grammar, but content as well ..

Sometimes I'll tend to blame my groupmates why can't they give me something relevant to our assignment? So that I can save my time to edit just grammar, without worrying about the content ...

Sometimes I just want to scream
"I DON'T WANT TO EDIT ASSIGNMENT ANYMORE !!!!! "

Those who are not doing edit can own their free time after they've sent their part of assignment to the editor.

But the editor, not only has to do his part, but edit as well.
The editing process is not short, it's super time consuming.

If there is only one assignment for the whole sem, fine, the torturing moments will end after this assignment.

But we have many assignments awaiting us !!

And I not only edit for one assignment !!!!

Econometrics assignment for example, we don't even have any idea how to do !!

Statistics as well !

Sometimes I'll get jealous over my groupmates that are not very good in English, because the moment they send their part of assignment to the editor, THEY ARE FREE !!!

They do not need to worry about editing, unless their leader requests them to redo.

I always console myself,
since screaming and blaming can't change the fact,
Why not I accept the editing task and edit it happily ?

By editing, I can get to learn more from my friends' part of assignment ~
Though time consuming, at least what I gained is a lot ..

But ... When I'm sick ... these positive thinking doesn't exist ....

I tend to blame and complain .....

Anyhow I know everyone has different capabilities, I shouldn't expect so high to everyone.

I'm sick ... Headache and Fever ...

Was struggling to sleep last night ..

But today I feel so much better .

Sorry ... I think I'm a bit too much today.

But guys,
If you're not editing,
Please, don't increase the burden of the editor.
Footnote and content.

And PLEASE DON'T EVER USE GOOGLE TRANSLATE !!!

U try to use google translate to translate one english article into Chinese see whether u can understand or not?

U write with the vocab and grammar that u can understand.
If u can't even understand what ur part of assignment is, then how can u expect the editor to understand?

Editor job is not easy ... try to understand them.

Don't make them go mad and scolding you secretly in their heart.

And another thing,
PLS DON'T COPY AND PASTE DIRECTLY FROM WEBSITE !
Unless you want to place footnote after that sentence you got from website, otherwise DON'T !

I'm enough ..

I'm missing kampung ....

2010-10-06T08:24:00.000-07:00

Biggest gain for program anak angkat in kampung orang sungai at Sandakan is :

"Giving and Receiving are at the same level"

The penghulu once said,

"If you need our help in future, just come and look for us, we will surely give u a hand, because GIVING AND RECEIVING ARE AT THE SAME LEVEL"

The kampung residents treated everyone nicely, even better than their children.
This is so kind for them and not calculative at all, to treat us without hoping for any return.

Yea, they were tooo kind to us ..

Really ...

We insisted to buy the Sambal, then for the last day, my mak angkat already packed for us. She gave us the sambal we requested and also some sort of durian merah belacan where it's quite expensive in the kampung.

When we said we wanted to try sitting in the boat, exploring the place, the next day Pak Cik really brought us to the loji that took us almost half an hour to reach.

Everytime when we were back to house, they prepared lite snacks and drinks for us.

I love them ....

Even when I was in the bus back to UMS,
my cute adik angkat - Atoi phoned me twice to ensure my safety.

I just love that place ....

Everyone smiles sincerely ...

Everyone cries because they are really sad to send us back ....

Everyone laugh because they are really happy ...

Their life is simple.

They are kind, generous and friendly.

I miss them ...

I must have a second visit to Kampung Segaliud, Sandakan.

MUST !

Because I have another family there.

Perhaps next sem ?

I really wish to see them ......

They have taught me many things.

I miss that peaceful kampung ....

Experience in donating platelet

2010-09-16T22:14:00.000-07:00

This is my first experience of donating platelet.

My neighbour needs more platelet to standby for his stem cell transplant surgery (i dun really know what's that la anyway), and so happened that my blood type - A is same as him.

So, his father brought me to SDMC (was known as SJMC previously b4 Sime Darby take over), and that's where my first ever platelet donation happened.

The whole process was super long, takes more than 1 and a half hour, it's like 3 times longer than blood donation wey !

Good thing is, compared to blood donation where u can only donate every 3 months, platelet donation requires only 2 weeks ! And it'll be recorded in ur blood donation book.

If you've just donated blood, you can donate platlet after 2 weeks.

If you've donated platlet, you can donate blood after 2 weeks (providing u have donated blood 3 months ago).

My hand.

Imagine putting ur hand at the same position like that for 1 and a half hour ...

Luckily nurst is friendly, and there's tv to release my sien-ness.

And this is the machine to separate my blood and platelet.
It will only extract platelet, after the separation process is done, the blood will be returned to my body.

So in the end, I don't lose any bloods.

The feeling of donating platelet is geli. haha. A little bit geli ~

And the yellowish thingy is my platelet.

You guys can try donating platelet next time.

Because the more you donate, the more lifes you can save =D

Simply random shuffle photos in UMS

2010-09-01T16:18:00.000-07:00

Beautiful scenery of UMS are spotted !

East Malaysia is 1 hour earlier than Peninsula Malaysia.

The sun rise below was taken at 6a.m outside my hostel block > >

Of course,
with the help of my K800i cybershot =D

And this sunset was taken after my evening class,
(at the middle of DKPA2 and DKPA1, on the way to toilet)

Davey and I caught this beautiful scene when we were on the way to have our dinner at D'Bayu cafe.

Can see the sea?
The tress beautify the scene.

The beautiful scenery is the biggest gain I've got in UMS.

The sky is always blue and cloudless,
My faculty (or commonly known as Sekolah) Sekolah Perniagaan dan Ekonomi is facing the sea.

I can see the Mount Kinabalu early in the morning. It's tallest among other mountains, as if it's protecting the state of Sabah.
I'll somehow feel the peace in my heart each time I see the Mount Kinabalu.
Too bad I didn't snap it's photo, because I'm afraid that the Mount Kinabalu will lose its beauty if the photo is captured in my phone.

So, just imagine it.

I will post the photo once I've got a nice shot of it.

After enjoying the nice scenery in UMS,
let's see how ugly the scenery can be, when ..........

Students are going for something?

What are they writing?

And why is everyone in a rush?

For this !! --->>

The attendance list.
The right column is where we students supposed to sign as according to our printed name at the left column.

The names are arranged in alphabetical order,
and the name list is passed during the 2 hours of lecture,
but why are the students still fighting for the atttendance list?

This happened in my Marketing class.

As you can see, my class has approximately 350 students.

Students who fought for the attendance list were those who didn't get the chance to sign during lecture time,
because our class is too BIG !
It takes more than 2 hours for the attendance list to successfully pass to everyone.

It's very common to see the stapled attendance list is teared off and we are used to it.

Because of such ugly scenery happening especially in big class,
therefore, for our Entrepreneurship business idea assignment, we suggested that the thumbprint attendance machine should be installed in every big lecture class, so that students no need to grab for the attendance list. Fights and unhappiness can be avoided by that.

And this is a photo of our most complains, most troublesome and hardest subject - Econometrics lecturer - Miss Vinci Chin !!

Yes, the one who always gave us so many homework !
And the one who fail to make us understand the subject in lecture (but not during tutorial)
And the one who always ruined our weekend for his assignment and homework !
And the one who always drink carbonated can drinks in class(except for the puasa month), so unhealthy.

She's using her Mickey Mouse laptop to teach us Econometrics software - EView homework.

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U believe ar?

Haha, no la, she's my coursemate - Vinci.
She wanted to use her laptop to connect to the screen behind to show us the steps of obtaining the final output when the lecture hall was empty.
Unfortunately, her laptop wasn't accepted by the projector.
End up, she sat in front of us, and guided us.

What I'm trying to imply here is,
about forgetting the bad, and see more good in every places, everyone.

Yes,
UMS has many awaiting improved systems, facilities, services,
but, we should be grateful to be able to enjoy the beautiful Mount Kinabalu and sea scenery over here.

I've read one interesting article, there's one memorable sentence:

"If you get a big but sour apple, please appreciate that the apple is big;
If you get a small but sweet apple, please appreciate that the apple is sweet."

You'll never satisfied if you keep complaining that the apple is sour or the apple is small.

Appreciate your life and the person you've met,
And be grateful and satisfied with what you have right now,

only you will stay happy always.

Sleep, if you're unhappy,
and sorrows will be swept away.

If you have the chance to laugh,
just laugh loudly,
because you wouldn't know when will you laugh again,
perhaps next moment you're down, emo?

Enjoy every moments guys !

I hope you guys doing well rite now !

All the best for your mid-term and wat sort of assignments !

Econ + metrics

2010-08-31T04:44:00.000-07:00

Banyaknya formula ....

Terlalu confusing la subject ni ...

Kamu la kamu la, Econometrics !!

Selalu macam tu,

belajar kat texbook tak cukup lagi,

nak tambah satu texbook untuk software EView .....

Seolah-olah kita ni ambil 2 subjects....

Susahnya kita punya life....

2010-08-30T21:39:00.000-07:00

其实我要表达的就是，
持续开花的花为什么受人爱戴，
因为它看每个人，不是看他们的缺点，而是看他们的优点，然后欣赏他们的优点。
这种花，有着善良的心，菩萨的心肠，
所以格外受到人的爱戴。

可是，受到很多人爱戴的代价是，很多蜜蜂蝴蝶的注目和追求。
当然也有自己的压力。

小草呢，
是个非常自由的小草，
任踩任淋，都还是坚强地生存下去，
持续保持绿色。

这两者，各有魅力，
不能说小草，或者花朵比较美，比较受人爱戴。
因为每个人欣赏的事情是不同的。

有人欣赏菩萨心肠，
当然也有人欣赏小草坚强的生命力。

所以，
你是小草，还是花朵呢？

其实都不重要，
因为有人喜欢草，不喜欢花；
也有人喜欢花，不喜欢草。

=P

酱讲，应该明白了吗？

加油！不要想那么多！

回复：小小草

2010-08-30T11:48:00.000-07:00

小草不好吗？

小草好啊，
踩不死，
有着顽固的生命力，
绿绿的，不止把草地添颜色，
也让人家的眼睛看了都很舒服，

你是小草，不是杂草。
小草生在对的地方，
而杂草刚好生在人家种花的盆里，让人不得不去把它拔除掉。
小草的作用很多时候都被忽略掉，
可是没有小草时，大家就会觉得似乎少了点什么。

你是小草，是永远都绿绿的小草。
不要因旱灾没有水分而枯黄掉，
不要把小草原本美丽的绿色给涂上枯黄色，
因为枯黄色意味着小草顽强的生命力开始受到质疑，
因为枯黄色不美。
人们还是喜欢绿绿的小草。
所以，要做个永远绿色的小草，不要被旱灾给打败！要在旱灾时，继续保持绿色，才能突显出你这小草的独特，让人家对你另眼相看。

花朵，再怎么美，如果没有小草在衬托着，它也只是一般的美。

花朵很脆弱，
生命力很短，
而且需要细心的呵护和照顾才能开花。
种一朵花时间肯定比种草费时。
人家当上花，或许，也和种花一样，费了很多心思呢？
不止是浇花，晒晒太阳让自己开花变美丽，
也同样，施肥，下雨天或太阳猛烈时把它收进来，让自己内涵修养好，才可以不止开花，也能继续开花，继续绽放开花的美。

如果只是开花，而不施肥以及给与细心的照顾，花开的花，只是短暂性的。

花有鲜艳的美，
草有绿色的美，
就好像大家各有自己喜欢的颜色一样，是不能勉强的。

当然，也有的人喜欢别的颜色，就像我喜欢阳光的橙色。

等到有一天，小草必定有人欣赏，有人照顾，有人疼惜的。

所以，你可以选择当个顽固生命力的小草，也同样可以当个继续开花的花。

当然，相反的，
你也可以当个枯黄的小草，
或者一个短暂开花的花。

我选择当个平凡的小草，
因为那样更自在，
不太引人注目，不用太在意他人眼光，要做什么就做什么，不用限制自己，
要不顾形象地笑，就笑，
完全没有要为人家活而活的感觉。

当然，你也可以选当花，
一个独特的花朵，
只让有眼的人欣赏，
可是要记得哦，
比起小草，花比较容易迎来蜜蜂蝴蝶哦，
小小压力是难免的哦~

呵呵，
加油吧！

花为何会继续灿烂？
因为它们被施肥，
施的肥是什么？
粪便。

花朵就是连平常人畏惧，捏起鼻子，觉得一无是处的粪便都可以找到欣赏它敬佩它的理由。
*所以它和平常人不一样*

保持开花的花朵，是让人赞许的，因为他们不止有内涵，也同样会欣赏每个人和事物。

明白我要传达的意思了吗？

Mafan

2010-08-24T19:31:00.000-07:00

唉。。。要专心做星期五 Japanese 的 presentation 和读 Japanese 在星期六的 mid term 都不可以。。。

一直有 assignment ，功课和会议 ka ka cau cau 搞搞震，

打乱我定下的时间表~

FIRE FIRE !!!!

我要尽快赶完全部东西好让我可以拥有自己的时间去读书！！！！！！

I miss first sem ...

2010-08-21T03:33:00.000-07:00

Finally I get to understand why do our seniors kept telling us during our first sem that we should score, we should join more activities in first year.

2nd year's life is really hectic, even though I'm not joining any activities except weekly chinese debate training. (And for that I must say, I'm so sorry for this club for not contributing anything except my attendance).

Assignments, mid term, quiz ....

I could still remember during last sem, we were all so free to loiter at 1Borneo or KK, but now, I go 1B to buy my necessities only. Unlike first sem where we could go there just for MacD, 2 - 3 times a week man ! Walao~

Juniors, please enjoy ur first sem, at the same time, make sure u SCORE !!

Those planning to study Economics, you are encourage to take form6 Mathematics, otherwise you will suffer.

Gotta open my Econometrics book !

All the best everyone !

Smile =)

Econometrics

2010-08-21T03:29:00.000-07:00

Econometrics DAMN HARD LA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DON'T UNDERSTAND LA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why when students are still blur with this subject, you are still giving us so many tasks to submit !!!!!!!!

URGH URGH URGH !!!!

Nvm, I'll conquer you one day.

I've forgotten that uni students should not rely so much on lecturer.

I've never had such hopeless feeling that I will fail this subject since first sem.

Econometrics is number 1 !

So proud neh?

But I will make sure I won't fail !!

2010-08-18T19:04:00.000-07:00

没有办法，
有时候以带有训导性的语气拒绝一个人的要求，
就会失去一个朋友。

虽然这个朋友跟我不会太熟，
也不会看中文，
整天忙东忙西，忙得却是课业以外的东西，
到头来上课，assignment 几乎完全忽略掉，
上个 sem 看他是这样，已经讲他骂他到我放弃了，
最后我问他一句：

“酱你现在酱忙到成绩跌，开心吗？”

他答，开心。

由他吧！

这个 sem，我只有两个科目跟他一样。

我跟他真的不会很熟。

这两个科目都没有和他一起坐过，上个 sem 有啦，一科罢了。

开学第 6 个礼拜了，
前天 tutorial 竟然是他第一堂课！
他叫我帮他霸位，我拒绝他说我不能，因为班很小，要自己从外面拿椅子进来。
他说：“you try la, help me reserve a seat”

那时，不知为何，跟他讲，
现在如果我继续帮你，我只是 manja 你而已，
我帮你是可以，可是前提是你本身也要有那个心去听课，
看你整天不是在忙课业东西，
弄到我都不想再帮你了。

之后，发觉我自己语气有点重后，我再发给他 “hope u don't get misunderstood by my words”

然后他就跟我解释说他来不及 register tutorial class，
而且前几个礼拜又有这个那个活动要忙啦~
lecturer 才叫他随便进一班。

他最后还说，

“ sorry for disturbing you. I won't disturb you anymore”

我的心冷掉。

做人难。

难道要我继续看他堕落下去，不讲他吗？

讲了，我收到的回应就是这个。
要我继续容忍，继续越看越不顺眼也不要出声吗？
我不能。

就酱。

讲真心话，是会伤害到人。

所以，肯听你讲真心话又不嫌弃你的朋友，你应该好好珍惜。

2010-08-12T06:49:00.000-07:00

我请求大家请帮忙，
真的真的，
我很需要大家的力量。

请为 josh 的妈妈祈祷。。。

请依自己的宗教信仰来为他的妈妈祷告。。。

请大家贡献一点点时间和力量。。。

请。。。。。。。

谢谢你们。。。。。

我不希望他母亲发生什么事。。。。真的。。。

上个月见到他妈妈时，他妈妈还好好地，很热情地跟我聊天。。。

我真的不要有什么事发生在她身上。。。

2010-08-12T06:32:00.000-07:00

lee eu yang 是个讨人厌的家伙。
lee eu yang 是个整天会弄人家伤心，弄人家愤怒的家伙。
lee eu yang 是个不会讨人家开心的家伙。
lee eu yang 是个一点点就开心，一点点就受伤的家伙。
lee eu yang 不是个好人。
lee eu yang 对钱很计较。
今天只不过发现自己本来买的 20 块 digi reload coupon 丢失了，
就心痛了大半天。
lee eu yang 没有好人的特征，没有，没有。
lee eu yang 每天会想多多。
lee eu yang 最不会讲话，每次人家伤心时，就跟他们讲长篇大论的道理，不会安慰人。
lee eu yang 讲话很直接，每次都伤害到人家的心。。。

所以，对不起。。。

家人，不可或缺

2010-08-11T02:04:00.000-07:00

家庭，家人，父母，婆婆，兄弟姐妹，
原来他们在我心目中的地位那么高。。。

认识了 Josh，
我才明白要及时对家人说：我爱你。

爱家人，请不要吝啬。
要表现出来，家人才收到，家人才明白他们对我们的付出是值得的。

昨天我才对我妈说：我爱你。

神奇吧？
这是我第一次那么有勇气，那么自然地说出来。
我猜想，我妈当时的反应是如何的呢？
是否暗地里偷笑呢？
是否觉得我这个整天跟她顶嘴的孩子竟然也会对她说我爱她呢？

Josh 的母亲发生了一些事，
那天他 sms 我，要我为他母亲祈祷。

在这里，希望你是路过也好，认真地看我的 blog 也好，
我希望你能为她妈妈做一个简单的祈祷，保佑他妈妈能度过这一关就可以了。
谢谢！

听到他在电话里抽泣，埋怨，然后知道他为他妈妈做的一切，
其实我都被他感动到。

他真的是个很孝顺的孩子，
我以前公司去 genting 的 company trip，他都可以选择放弃，只为了要呆在家陪他的妈妈。

虽然他的嘴巴还是老样子，比我更会顶妈妈的嘴，
可是，从小小小小动作，都可以看得出他很在乎他的妈妈，很关心他的妈妈，即时他口里常说他妈妈对他弟弟好过对他啦，他妈妈整天唠唠叨叨，整天这个整天那个，
可是到了最关紧时刻，
他才发觉自己原来是那么那么爱他妈妈。

可是就因为他跟他妈妈整天吵架，
所以他连抱妈妈，这种在平常人眼中简单不过的动作，都要鼓起勇气去做。

他爱他的妈妈，
很爱很爱，
可是有时他会担心他妈妈不会领他的好意，
比如说，他会怕当他特地为他妈妈做一样东西东西时，换来的是他妈妈的 “你不需要酱做啦！”或者 “你假假啦” 之类泼冷水的话。
所以他不敢为他妈妈付出太多。

我想说的是，
其实换个角度来看，
有时当妈妈为我们付出时，
我们给的也是一种理所当然的反应，或者我们会拒绝他们的好意。
好意被拒绝的感受，我明白。
可是很多时候，父母的好意偶尔也会被我们觉得是多此一举，或者多管闲事，或者被我们不爽，
那我们身为孩子的，偶尔才为父母付出，也那么偶尔不被他们领情而已，就会感到心痛。
相比之下，父母很多时候的付出都不被我们领情，他们心痛的次数肯定比我们来得多。
既然如此，我们偶尔的心痛又算什么呢？

但是，看得出，这次他真的不去理他妈妈会怎样想，
总之，他清楚知道他的举动，是为他妈妈好的，就算他妈妈不当一回事，可起码，他能帮助到他妈妈。

我被他的举动给感动，也被感染。

因此我才会明白，珍惜和关心父母不要等到最后一分钟，要时常的。
所以我才会很自然地对我妈说：我爱你。

现在，想起来，我对我妈真的不太好，
她有时唠叨的东西，我会觉得烦；
她为我做的东西，我会觉得，我有自己的一套方法，我不需要整天跟着她，可到头来，还是妈妈的方法最对。
妈妈生日，我们孩子都没什么表示，通常是由爸爸请，然后全家人一起去吃个饭。。。

人在异乡，才明白家人是多么地重要。

我妈妈，每次在我来 kk 之前，都会塞很多食物，零食进我的行李。
我每次都嫌很多，很重，吃不完。
可是，我来到 kk 之后，才发觉妈妈做的一切是对的，
因为妈妈带过来的零食，不到一个礼拜就被我扫光。。。

我想念我的家人。。。

Josh，
要坚强面对每一天，
记住 Nisha 给你的劝告，
做个听话的乖孩子，不要再跟你妈妈顶撞啦，ok?

记得记得，
男子哭，不是脆弱的表现，
是因为太爱的表现，
男子哭，也是因为有感情才哭。
没有人会笑你的。
因为他们会被你孝顺的个性给感化，从而领悟到家庭，家人的重要性。

你看，
就因为你哭，让他们明白珍惜家人要及时，
酱你是不是做了一个功德呢？

佛陀，上帝知道要怎样做，只要你诚恳地祷告。

诚恳地祷告，当然也要附上天天累积的功德才有效。

微笑是一种布施，
你可能不知道，别人或许会因你的微笑而心情好起来呢？

刚才在找佛曲时，看到这个 “报父母恩咒” ：

每逢农历七月中每日念诵此咒四十九遍，
回向现世父母增福增寿，七世父母往生净土，
可报答父母恩。若一日未诵，第二日可补诵。 

<报父母恩咒>：

南无密利多  多婆曳 娑诃 
nā mó mì lì duō，duō pó yì，suō hē。

多生累劫之父母恩重难报，却无以为报，则有佛教报父母恩咒，
每逢农历七月中每日念诵报恩咒四十九遍，
可报父母恩，现存父母延寿，去世父母超拔，如一日未诵，次日可补诵。
（尽孝之心又何止拘泥于七月啊！）
　　父母十大恩情：　
第一恩、怀胎守护恩；
第二恩、临产受苦恩；　
第三恩、生子忘忧恩；
第四恩、咽苦吐甘恩；　　
第五恩、回干就湿恩；
第六恩、哺乳养育恩；　
第七恩、洗濯不净恩；
第八恩、远行忆念恩；　
第九恩、深加体恤恩
第十恩、究竟怜愍恩。　　

诵咒回向文：
愿此报恩经功德，普及父母於一切，　　
四生六道与含灵，皆共同登圣觉岸。　　

回向时，心要至诚，也可自己添加些言语。　　
念咒时莫要特意去数数，心更要至诚，用丹田深吸口气，念至不能再出气为止，然后再吸气，再念。。。。。。

其实念这 “报父母恩咒” 的另一个目的，是要提醒自己要珍惜父母，
因为在念的时候，我是想着我父母为我做过的一切。

Josh，
不好意思哦，分享你的故事给大家。

可是，你的故事，对我来讲是伟大的，
我希望给更多人知道，也可以感染他们。

南无密利多，多婆曳娑诃 x 49

谢谢你 Josh，
你让我明白佛经咒语的重要性，不只是念而已，也要从中体会咒语佛经的意思，
你也让我明白：我爱你，要及时说出来，
你让我明白，要珍惜家人，朋友，要明白朋友真正的需求，然后尽量满足它。

不要怕念咒语会给弟弟笑，
因为念了也没什么不好，反而能够达到祈祷的效果，不好吗？

对不起

2010-08-11T01:59:00.000-07:00

对不起，
如果我的举动和平常的我不一样，
吓坏了你们，
而因此对我抱怨，
真的很对不起。。。。。

我指的是你们所有人，
对不起。。。

Preventive Healthcare 的日子 Part 5

2010-07-16T04:13:00.000-07:00

Nisha 是我们 Telemarketing department 的 Assistant Manager。

她其实暗地里为我们顶了很多罪，是我们不了解的。

Booking number 少，上头肯定怪我们，
Customers 没有来，我们也被责怪，
Customers 没有能力签 medical package，我们又被赖在头上。

可是我们老板从来没有当面和我们召开会议责怪我们，
老板反而会责问 Nisha。

Nisha 根本没有做错些什么，却要挨骂。
而她的感受，又有谁会了解呢？

很多时候，她对我们施压，催我们，骂我们，其实她对我们已经很宽容了。

因为她曾经是 telemarketer，所以拿不到 booking，customer 没有来并不是我们随口编的借口，而是我们真的真的没有运气。

说真的，这份工很靠运气。
我不大喜欢。。。我较喜欢靠努力来拿到成就的工作。

可是这里的人真的太太太好了。
连上司都那么好。。。真的很难得。

Nisha 每次都说:

" Guys, I really feel like quitting this job. I don't understand why I have to bear the blame everytime, when it wasn't my fault."

" I've been very linear to you guys. Everytime when you guys chit chat, rest for awhile, I'll close one eye. If Devan(my manager) is here, he won't allow this from you guys. "

有一次她被公司的一些小心眼的人在背后插了一刀。

真的替她感到可怜。。。。那些人真的是，根本不懂得感恩！他们根本不了解自己被 Nisha 保护了多少。唉。。。。 Nisha，你要加油啊！不要为那些人辞职，因为在你背后有很多明白你苦心的人。

Nisha 宽容的程度，我一个个形容给你听。

如果要申请 leave 的话，依照规定是 1 个礼拜前就要交申请表格。
那时是星期六，我和 Josh 要在下个星期二去 Sungei Wang 捐血，可是当时我们都仍是新人，不清楚公司的规则，所以 Nisha 那时看到我们递给她的表格后，直接说：

" Cannot. The leave must be applied at least 3 days before."

然后我们一直求她，她才说：

“ Ok, either you or josh take leave, you all think yourself, tell me later."

我跟 Josh 回到工作岗位后，就不断不断地想办法要如何在当天两个人一起拿假期。
其中一个就是，他去交表格，而我在当天拿 Emergency leave 或 MC。

哈哈，很坏是不是？很不 ethical 是不是？

不过还好我们没有做不 ethical 的事，因为 Nisha 在那天工作结束后，说：

" Josh and Yang, your leave has been approved !"

=D

我们那天拿的是 half day，早上来了公司后我们就搭的士去 Kerinci LRT 站。
在我们走之前，Nisha 说：

" Guys, I am really proud with you two. "

" Of course la, we are from PREVENTIVE HEALTHCARE ma~ " 我跟她开玩笑。

其实她之前不批是因为她要控制员工的数量，而且每当一个员工请假，她都必须写一份报告。所以，如果当天有很多人 off，她的工作量就会增加许多。。。

Nisha 送我两份礼物 - 衣服和 photo frame。
所以 Josh 才千吩万咐我一定一定要做或买东西来答谢她。

我真的觉得 Nisha 对我很好。
我虽然和她闲聊的机会不多，可是她依然对我很好。

我很幸运可以拥有一个没有架子而且明白事理的上司。

就算你 booking 很少，她也不会责怪你，因为她明白那不是完全你的错误。
她最多也只是要你更勤奋去打电话而已。

Nisha 最近都很累。。。。又要顾孩子，又要面对公司很多很奇怪的事情，而且又要为我们做 confirmation。

上司承受的压力果然和下属不一样。

无论如何，我希望 Nisha 能够在工作上，遇到贵人！

照片中的黑衣是 Nisha 送的。
也是 Esther 和 Account department 的 siew li 帮忙选的 =D

祝福你 Nisha ！

Preventive Healthcare 的日子 Part 4

2010-07-14T21:26:00.000-07:00

你们可能很难相信，为何我只呆在那公司一个月多，却有那么多感触那么多的不舍？

对，我也很难相信。
就算现在有个人跟我讲我的故事，我也不能相信。

但是，它就是这样活生生发生在我眼前。

一个月很快过，
一个月我可以过得很平淡，也可以过得很丰富。

有时在想，
如果当初我不进来这间公司就好了，起码我不会遇到我的超级 buddy - Josh，也不会遇到 Mama, Aunty Kathryn，Esther，Candice, Nisha，Fennie, Kak C.T, Kak Sofea, Cyndie, Shantini, Sam, Diana, 还有很多很多。

对他们，我有着很多很多的感触，而这些感触并不是每个人能在一时间了解和啃得下，所以我不得不在我比较私人的空间 - blog 来抒发出来。

我想要和很多人分享，我在一个月里面的际遇。

我觉得他们是老天爷派来的天使，负责在我我工作之余，给我欢乐，让我在一个多月里面忘记什么叫孤独。
他们是一群很可爱的天使。

我真的觉得，即使我没有 hit 到 target，只是领 RM1000 的底薪，也真的太过太过划算了。
我可以一边领钱，一边享受快乐。

这种工哪里找？？？

我不介意薪水低，只要我过得开心就可以了。

我知道世间在改变，所有东西是无常的。
意思是说，我现在在 Preventive Healthcare 遇到的员工，可能在我回来的 12月时已经失去当初“温馨”，“温暖” 的感觉。

我以前做 customer service 的公司 - mobile technic，据说因一个人的关系，搞得全部人不得安宁。每天要提防她，想办法对付她，以免她在你背后插你一刀。
甚至，做每一样事情都要很谨慎，不能有一丝一毛的错误，要不然，她会把嘴巴开的大大的，把你的错误像她嘴巴一样越放越大，越描越黑，搞得你没有为自己辩驳的机会。

我记得以前呆在 Mobile Technic 时，就算再忙，每天要 O.T 也好，我都可以因为同事之间相处得很融洽而把所有工作上遇到的烦恼给忘掉。
可是，如果要我在那边做工的话，说真的，很难，因为当初支撑我留下的理由已经不见了。

到现在，我才明白，原来一个人的力量也可以很大，足以把整间公司给摧毁掉。

回到来 Preventive Healthcare，

我最后一天哭得那么厉害是因为我不舍得离开这间充满 “温馨” 以及 “温暖” 的地方。
或许，这是我一生人当中在工作环境过得那么那么地开心。

你们可能会说，“酱你回到西马时再去那边做工吧？”

可以是可以，但是谁可以保证，Preventive Healthcare 所有的员工可以保持不变，没有任何一个人辞职呢？

就像 Mobile Technic 一样，变了很多很多。。。人事已非。。。。

当你看到你当初快快乐乐的地方变成充满怨恨，斗争的地方时，你会不会感到心痛？

就像几个月前你发现有一档 Rojak 和 Cendol 档很好吃，是你吃那么多 Rojak 和 Cendol 以来最好吃的两档。
然而，你被派到外地工作半年。这半年你非常想念那档最好吃的 Rojak 和 Cendol。
所以当你回来时，你迫不及待去找那间 Rojak 和 Cendol 的档口。
可惜，当你来到时，却发现只有 Rojak 的档口。
Cendol 的档口呢？
Rojak 老板很生气地说 “那个人啊，我们不用理！”
追问之下，才知道 Rojak 老板和 Cendol 老板两个人因误会而分开。
没办法，你只好吃 Rojak。
吃一碟 Rojak 再配一碗 Cendol 是最大的享受。
现在却只剩 Rojak。
而当你品尝第一口 Rojak 时，当初熟悉的味道全没了，连你都搞不清究竟是老板的手艺退步了，还是因为没有 Cendol 来滋润喉咙，所以 Rojak 的味道变了。

我所要表达的是，如果你现在过得很开心，请珍惜它。
因为现在开心，不代表下一秒你会持续的开心。

如果不开心，就做些会短暂让自己开心的东西。
做工做得不开心，是因人或因工作？
因人的话，起码在工作上你可以找到一些欢乐。而且，因人，是一个人还是很多人？总不是每个都惹你生气吧？
因工作的话，至少和同事相处你可以找到你要的快乐。
没有事情是绝对。

我那天哭，因为我明白过了那天，我或许再也找不到那样的欢乐，温暖和温馨，所以我哭是因为我很想念。

现在当我回忆起在 Preventive Healthcare 的片段，我会忍不住笑。。。

感谢 Josh 出现在我生命里，
也感谢 Preventive Healthcare 的所有人。

我还会继续 update 在 Preventive Healthcare 时，影响我很大的人。

Preventive Healthcare 的日子 Part 3

2010-07-14T19:44:00.000-07:00

接下来要介绍的这个人，是我对她的人格有很大的误会。

一直到最后一天，我才完全完全了解她的人格是如何的，为何她的行为会与我们平常人不一样。

她叫 Candice，是个 Part time telemarketer。可是她的时间很 flexible，她可以自由选择要几时进，几时出，不像普通 Part timers 只是在星期四，星期五星期六 10点到6点做工的。她呢，可以星期三早上来了一下，下午就回家。或者星期四午餐过后才过来。上司也没有过问些什么，因为她即使来的次数少，来的小时不多，可是她依然可以拉到很多 customer 来我们的 medical program。

她讲话真的是一流！她所拨打的几乎每一个 customer 都肯定会跟我们做 bookings。比方说，她说打的 10 通电话里，至少有 3 个 bookings。而我们呢，幸运的话，10通电话会有 1 个 booking；运气差的话，100 通电话里才有 1 个 booking。我试过整个整个礼拜，每天打两百多通电话才有 1 个 booking 而已！！

她在我们眼中是一个奇怪的人，因为我们摸不清她到底在想什么，为何这种时候会有酱的举动。

比如说，我们 lunch time 时，她却不去吃饭，反而留在房间内继续打给客人。

我们问她不饿吗？她说她习惯了。

或者说，她宁可从公司走路去 kerinci LRT station，也不愿坐公司提供的 van。

当问为何时，她就说她要 keep fit。

Keep fit? 她很瘦很小只好不好？

从公司去到 LRT station 大概有 1.5km 吧，如果路是直的，那倒好，但是这个是山路咧！
我从我公司忘下去是 U.M 第12宿舍。Yee Feng 你可以想象我们公司是多么高吧~哈哈。

当我们全部人在房外面 lucky draw 时，她却一个人留在房内打电话给客人。
轮到她 draw 时，还要效劳我们 Assistant Manager 去把 lucky draw 的箱子拿进去给她 draw。

当时我们全部人都很纳闷，为何她要那么大牌需要她上司去迁就她呢？

再比如说，我和 Josh 都很习惯性地等全部人从 Van 下车，再帮他们关 Van 的门。

有一次刚好是 candice 最后一个下车，她下了车后问我们为何还不离开，我们就说

"We want to close the door."

她听了，说：

"No need la, you all not need to be the slave to serve everybody."

再比如说，有次 Josh 从 Pasar Seni 打包 Nasi Lemak。Candice 看到 Nasi Lemak 好像很好吃，就叫 Josh 打包给她吃。

由于她在公司是自由进出，所以 Josh 就跟她要她的电话号码，因为 Josh 要确定她那天有没有来上班。

可是 Candice 却说:

"No need la. You just buy, I'll come"

"Then if the stall is not open?" Josh 问。

"Then no need to buy."

"Won't you feel hungry?"

"Nevermind, I'm used to it already."

在我离开的最后第二天，她带来很多食物，当作是我的叙别会。

那时我觉得奇怪的心情胜于高兴，因为我跟她在工作上都没有什么交集，我也没跟她谈过很多话，所以我很纳闷为何她会要为我庆祝呢？

她非常非常低调。她不喜欢把占完所有功劳，所以她就叫 Josh 跟她联合，说这个 party 是 Management 特地为了我而准备的。

可是，当天她说了一句话：
"Yang, for many new colleagues I've seen so far, you are the best. (跟 mama 说的一样)，but please bear in mind. Whatever you've learnt here, the good one you keep, the bad one you throw away. Always remember this."

就在我最后一天的时候，我递给她一张卡。（其实我为每个人准备一张卡）

她读了之后，跟我说了很多。印象最深刻是：

" Live or Death is depend on your tongue"

" I know you all been saying bad behind of me, but you ask yourself, did I say anything back to you? You think yourself "

" You all laugh at JXXXXX, you tell me now, why are you laughing at her?"

" Because she was doing something wrong." 我答。

" Well, what do you mean by wrong? Look back at your card. You mentioned about principle in your card. You said everyone has their own principle. So, let me ask you, if JXXXXX has different principle, can you say she's doing something wrong? Think about it? "

" You know, life is very cruel. When you talk, people will say bad about you. Even if you don't talk in the company like me, people will still say bad about me. So what should I do? As long as I know I'm pure in my heart that's more than enough. "

" Again, you mentioned that you must prioritize the others before yourself. So let me ask you, you eat with your a friend, you treat him/her. Ok, so the next time you all eat together, and when the bill comes, he/she has no sign of treating back you, so will you still treat him/her back？ Life is like that, I've been travelling around and seen too many people that's why I can say this. There's one time I treat Zimmy a packet of pisang goreng, but I din treat the other 2 staff. Then when we sat down in a coffee shop, they said "someone ar, want her to give something so hard ar". You see, did I do wrong for treating Zimmy but not them? "

" For every new comers, the old staff will drag you to be a part of them. They will influence you to the way they think. If you cannot tahan them and you feel like quiting, please be prepared to be alone."

" You must understand my situation, I can talk much with you all like how other staff did to you all(means Josh and I la), because the company is paying me well, so I must deliver my job, get more bookings, that's why you can see the company allows me to leave early or reach late. The company treats me well, so I must get more bookings as a return for them. That's why I sacrifice my lunch time, because I need to be dedicated with my job."

" I'm a shy person, I don't like to mix around with others. So that's why you can see, everytime I was standing behind for every meeting, and I din go out for lucky draw."

" But I can see that you are a good boy. You are very matured at your age, and you are smart. You have very good mannerism, please pass this message to your parents, they have brought up you well. As I said, the good one you keep, the bad one you throw. U get what I mean?"

她让我觉悟。
我一直以来都认为我做的东西是对的，没有想到原来自己还有很多好的价值观需要学习的。

我不应该嘲笑人家，我应该当面去纠正那个人。我觉得很对不起 JXXXXX 。。。

另外，我也对 Candice 感到内疚，因为我对她的误会太深了。
还好，最后一天时，她解了我这个误会。

" You are very brave to argue with me about principle, just like my son. And that's good."

我从那天她和我的谈话中，学了很多很多。。。我真的很感激她。。。

到最后她说多一阵子她会来到 KK 的 Nexus Karambrunai，到时候再来找她。她要我和她通 email。

我也希望你们可以从她说的话当中，有所领悟。

中间那个是她。

看到我笑得那么灿烂吗？
那是因为我很开心终于理清她原来不是个坏人！

谢谢你 candice，希望你过得开心点！！

最后，我要特别感谢 Josh ! 因为是他在我临走前的最后第二天要我特别感谢三个人：Aunty Kathryn, Nisha 和 Candice, 因为他们都有买礼物和为我庆祝。

如果不是 Josh，我应该不会写卡给 Candice，因为感觉上她不会接受我的卡。

但是，还好 Josh 一直一直要我感谢 Candice，我才在她的卡写了很多很多。

Thank you ya, my brother !

Preventive Healthcare 的日子 Part 2

2010-07-12T20:49:00.000-07:00

我和 josh 在 Preventive Healthcare 的师父是 - Esther !

Esther 虽然是上了年纪，可是她依然拥有很恨恨恨恨恨甜美的声音！！

告诉你们啦，有一次 customer 被她的声音给迷住了，就送她一束花、一盒巧克力，还有一个棒棒糖。

注意那个卡的名字 - Easter~ =.=''' 。好心，要追人家，名字也应该写对吧。。。。

很好笑哦。。一开始我坐在 Esther 旁边学习怎样邀请 customer 过来我们的 medical program。
Esther 突然间问我是不是客家人。

我就讲：“Huh? 我像咩？”

Esther 就说我讲话的方式还有脸很像。我就跟他讲，我大学的朋友几乎都是客家人，所以多多少少也有影响到的。

没有想到，西马人和东马人一样，叫靓女作 “货” (客家读音为 for 第一声) =D 很粗 hor?

Esther 也是一个很玩得的人。每次我和 Josh 吃完午餐之后都喜欢过去她位置那边 kacau 她。
Josh 的嘴巴又很贱的啦，所以有几次都不小心惹到她。

有一次，Esther 甚至忍不住用 stapler 朝 Josh 的方向丢去。
Walao wey !!

Esther 还讲 “我是故意不要丢中你的”，那时我和一个新人 - Jin 在中间。
Jin 很明显被吓了一大跳。

女人的年龄真的不能拿来开玩笑咧~ 恐怖。

这件事发生在我临走的前几天而已。
我看到 Josh 眼泛泪光，Esther 的气还没有消。

而且明明 Esther 很疼我们的，只是一时怒起上来需要发泄而已，因为她不想伤害她徒弟 - Josh。要丢 stapler 都要顾及 Josh，可以看得出她有多么地疼他。

其实我看到他们那么僵，我都怕了。。。我担心到我走之后他们还没和好，我走了心也会不安，就过去安慰 Esther：

“Sifu, 看在我要走的份上，不要生气他啦。。。。他嘴巴就是酱贱的，可是起码他心里不是酱想的嘛，如果他心里是酱想的我早就不要把他当好朋友来看咯！！现在你丢 stapler 给他，让他知道你不喜欢他这样叫你。现在他知道了咯，他以后也不会这样叫你了的。Josh 真的很关心你的，那天他去庙的时候还特地为你拜拜咧。。”

Esther 问：“真的？”

那个死鬼 Josh 就拿出他买花的收据，还说 “呐，四块钱，一块钱一枝 ”

haihz 。。。我没有力啦。。。

还好我的安慰有用，Esther 边笑边摸摸我的脸。 =D
我希望他们的感情能够一直好下去。

我也希望 Esther 不要再憎恨我们公司的其中一位同事发脾气，因为那样的话她会过的很不开心的。

Esther 在 Josh on leave 的那天告诉我说：“有些人一生人在遇过那么一次真正真正真正很恨恨恨要好的朋友。你遇到了要好好珍惜。”

我问 Esther, “酱你有遇到吗？”

“我有几个”

我要感谢 Esther 教会我 Telemarketing 的技巧。她很厉害的哦，不止要打电话邀请 customer 过来我们的 medical program，也要做 confirmation，就是 send sms 给每个 customer，再打电话给 customer 确定他们约定的时间，他们会否出席等。尽管如此，她所邀请的 customer 是我们全部 telemarketing department 中是最高的！很恐怖的！

Esther 也是一个谈心事的好姐姐。Josh on leave 当天我和她聊了很多，虽然聊天时间不长，但至少让我更深一步认识她。

在我准备出发去机场时，Esther missed call 我，我就回电给她。

我听到她的声音我吓了一大跳！她的声音很甜很甜很甜，但是又不会甜岛像黑涩会美媚那么腻。
她还开玩笑叫我把我朋友电话给她，看我朋友会不会被她甜美声音给迷倒呢~ 呵呵~

我最后一天时，Esther 说她忘记把我的礼物带来，她还问我的地址在哪里好让她可以把了礼物送去我家。

我心想，“Aiya 酱麻烦啊，酱明天我过去 Pantai Hospital (我们公司是跟 Pantai Group 联合的）找你啦，反正你明天要过去那边做 confirmation 嘛？酱我可以顺便看看 Sales 的人怎样和 customer 谈 medical package 的。”

所以就叫 Josh 一起来，因为我还没有还 Josh 借给我的 criminal law 。

所以上面我和 Esther 拍的照片是我那天去 Pantai Hospital 跟她要礼物顺便帮忙她 call customer 和接待已经来的 customers。

Sifu，你要过的开心点哦，要放下怨恨知道吗？

Preventive Healthcare 的日子 Part 1

2010-07-12T18:49:00.000-07:00

一直到现在，我还是无法相信，一个月多里面，竟然可以发生那么多事情。。。

我人生第一次哭得那么厉害，就算想停止哭泣也不能，完全不能控制的眼泪拼命流下。。
相信吗？
我在星期六傍晚，收拾东西，交代首尾给 Josh 的时候，我鼻子一酸，突然我的脸靠在桌子开始猛哭一场。。。

我舍不得我的座位。。。即使我才坐在那边一个多月。。。我根本不愿离开我的座位。。

还好那天倾盆大雨。。我们被逼逗留在公司直到雨变小，公司的 van 才可以载我们全部去 Bukit Jalil LRT Station。
感谢那场雨，
我才可以在我桌位把我对这间公司所有的思念与不舍哭出来，发泄一场。

谢谢 Josh 在我大哭的时候，陪着我。。。。他本来控制自己不要哭，可是自己却在后面时也忍不住哭了。

我哭了一个小时。。。每次告诉自己要停止哭泣时，我又想回在这间公司的开心，甜蜜，疯狂回忆，我的眼泪又落下了。。。。
终于可以停止哭了，可是再看到我刚结交的好好好朋友，好弟弟（因为他比我小 6 个月） Josh 的脸，我的眼泪又无法自拔地掉下了。。。

还好那时，我的 Assistant Manager - Nisha 和 Manager - Devan 进来安慰我。。我才真正停止哭泣。。。

Mr.Devan 还开玩笑跟我讲：
"Since you say the job is boring, but you love the company so much. Then in December I'll hire you as entertainer, you no need to make call, just cheer our staffs up, ok? "

我回应他，
“ I don't mind" 。哈哈。。

那天我没有跟公司的 Van 因为我的父母来载我，
我忘不掉跟我再见的 Nisha 和 Mama。

讲到 Mama，
她是一个很可爱很可爱很可爱的印裔 Aunty 。
即使她已经是 52 岁了，她还是可以像小孩子一样和 Josh 和我玩。
我跟 Josh 最喜欢听她跟 customer 讲话，因为她讲话就是那么好笑！！
她可以从

"Hello, Mr.Wong XX, my name is AMBI (她 telemarketing 的 nickname) and I'm calling from Preventive Healthcare in collaboration with Pantai Medical Centre Ampang" 跳去,

"Sir u tak ade transport ke?"

或者当她想拿 customer 的资料来做 booking 时，她会很可爱地问：

"Sir, your voice is so sexy, may I know how young are you?"

" Oh you are already 45 year old !? "

哈哈哈哈！！

总之，她讲话就只有可爱两个字可以形容。

她问我们："Chinese + Indian call what?"
我们回答："Chindian lor"

“then Chinese + Baih(singth) call what?"
我们全部都大笑地回答 "Chibai!!!!!!!" =D

Josh 每次最喜欢 kacau 她。她每次都会讲
"You two really naughty, very naughty."

然后我们也会回答，
“Mama you also very naughty." 呵呵~

Mama 讲她的情绪一定要保持好，意思是说她不能太高兴，也不能太伤心，因为她试过小时因为太高兴而昏倒，然后当她全家人以为她已经死了，她的灵魂却进回她的身体，而复活起来。

所以 Mama 说她不能和其他人太熟，但是她说：

"But don't know why, I just fall for you. ” haha.

"You are a good boy la. Many people we've seen, but you are the best !" 我听了真的很感动。虽然她重复了这句话很多次，但每次听到都会非常感动。

接着要讲 Aunty Kathryn。
Aunty 因为风湿的关系，脚会痛，所以每次爬楼梯的时候，都很慢很慢。
所以帮 Aunty 拿水的工作就很自然地落在我和 Josh 的身上。

Aunty 很可爱的哦！
虽然讲话没有 Mama 酱搞笑，但是还是很可爱，尤其是跟我们讲话的时候。
有时很像小孩子般，问我们；“系咩？”。
然后有一次我们的同事讲电话太大声时，Aunty 就摆出有点不爽的脸，然后讲：

“做咩敢大声 geh ？”

我就问 Aunty 要不要换位坐，没想到 Aunty 竟然讲：

“不用。我的声音比她大声，可以 drown 掉她的声音。” 哈哈哈哈！！！我听了之后一直一直一直在笑！！！！！！

Aunty 有很好的性格。
她不会去计较很多，和其他人讲话，态度也很好，好象永远不会发脾气般的。

有次 Aunty 带相片集过来，然后和我们讲了很多很多我们没有想过的故事。。
我很惊讶，Aunty 竟然可以那么平淡地跟我们讲她的过去。。。
让我很佩服。

忘了说，Aunty 坐我的隔壁，所以跟 Aunty keng gai 很方便。
Aunty 很容易哭哦。。
我最后第二天，当我穿上 Nisha 给我的衣服时，Aunty 就开始哭了。
甚至还要躲去其他房间不让我们看到她哭泣。

接着最后一天时，我送 Aunty 两对筷子和一张卡，要 Aunty 注意自己的饮食，不要吃太咸，太甜和油炸食物，猪肉也尽量少吃，因为 Aunty 有高血压。
Aunty 读完我的卡后又开始哭了。。。。
还匆匆忙忙离开公司，可能 aunty 不想逗留在公司免得她越哭越厉害吧。

然后差不多 8点多时，aunty 发给我几封短讯：

"Boy aunty really "ho ng sei tak" n even now sms 2 u bring tears,aunty cried on the way back tats why cant even say goodbye ,goin 2 miss u badly Boy,rember study hard n dont 4get 2 c us when u r back ok "

“Aunty thank Lord Buddha 4 getting 2 know u n josh even 4 short time but our relation r so good aunty love both of u"

" Aunty have been reading the orange paper over n over n each time bring tears n aunty promised 2 take good care of my myself n wat do eat,Boy u must also take good care of yr self n promised aunty study hard 2 pass yr exam.may Lord Buddha bless u my son.good nite n dont b 2 sad cos we will keep in touch alwys.aunty is happy 2 get 2 know josh n u"

Aunty 只有两个女儿，没有儿子。
所以看到我和 Josh 在公司整天吵吵闹闹，叽叽喳喳一整天，Aunty 很羡慕。
而且我和 Josh 好到好象两兄弟般，我是哥哥，他是弟弟 =)。
所以 Aunty 很早就把我们当儿子来对待了。

看到儿子我要离开，肯定很难过咯。。。

我看到 Aunty 的短讯，我心也在痛。。。。

突然想起 Aunty 叫她的老公作 “老公仔” 的表情很可爱！

Aunty 送我礼物的时候。

我要准备出去了。
还有接下来的 Part 。。。

抒发

2010-06-19T17:43:00.000-07:00

最近都会想一些事：要回沙巴了。。

最近都会做一些事：查日历，算算自己还有多少时间待在自己的家，还有我离辞职还有多远。。

我是真的爱上我的工作和同事们。
这和去年做 customer service 的心情完全不一样。

去年，每次要进公司就有很强烈的不愿和忧闷，每天进公司之间要调好自己的心情，让自己随时准备被客人骂，准备 O.T 到很晚，准备让工作把自己忙得喘不过气来，准备在午餐时间快快吃完家里带的便当，原因是：customer service 的人手不够，工作量又超大。
可是，至少我在那边认识了一班好同事，他们是唯一让我留下了半年的理由。

而目前的公司，即工作量不多，起码只是打打电话，要打不打是你的事，因为那关系到你的 commission。
所以，有了去年 customer service 的恐怖经验，这间公司相比之下，简直是天堂！
当然，最重要的因素落在同事上！

同事之间的不和，纷争，当然免不了，而且是每间公司都会发生的。
可是，撇开那些，其实同事之间根本就没有耍心计，玩弄人际关系，耍大牌的大事件发生。
大家好像一家人般，午餐时间就一起下去餐桌吃饭，很有团聚的感觉。
同事之间也会互相扶持。
来这里上班，根本就像是来结交朋友，来使自己更快乐一样。

真的真的真的很开心，很享受！！

我很少每天会那么期待去一个地方。
就算是上课，我都会 sien 掉~

这班同事会让我每天想去见他们，听听他们的废话，听听他们和 customer 说话的方式，看看他们搞笑的举动~ 哈哈！

当然，最让我舍不得的是我刚结交的好朋友 - Josh.
他也叫伟汉~，不过是姓郑的。

他比我迟一个礼拜上班。（所以也就少了一天 wesak day 的 replacement leave，hehe)
一开始见到他，对他没什么好感。
人长得有点 lanci （不是 linci ar~ hahahahaha, hakkan yin, understand bah?)，而且也像刚中五毕业的人一样。
心里就像，这个好生仔，肯定做不到一个礼拜就放弃了。
所以也就懒得跟他讲话，因为刚 spm 毕业的人，怎么会有共同的话题咧？

第一，第二天，即使在整个 telemarketting 的 department 就只有我们两个华人男子，我们也是零交流。很奇怪，谁也没有主动去跟谁讲话。
然后第三天，我的上司叫他以 telemarketer 的身份打给假扮顾客的我，然后我就告诉他他所犯下的缺点。之后才慢慢熟了起来。

才发现，这个我以为很年轻的小子，原来才比我小 6 个月！
的确，论样子，讲话方式，这个人像 spm 毕业生。

可是人家深长不露哦，他是 asia brickfield college 的 law student，刚刚才读完 first year。
现在和我一样，都是 sem break。
不过他的 sem break 比 local u 的长，到 9 月，甚至比楚蕊的 NUS 长！爽到！
他可以把 contract law 的那一个 section 的 bracket 什么什么都吐出来。
你看我们平常人哦，读了就忘了嘛，可是这个 law student 竟然有本事在考完试后还不忘记读过的东西。
而且还是 kimberly, jing jing 和 lay peng 这班 ACCA 学生都叫苦的 contract law。

我认识这个朋友才 3 个礼拜，可是感觉像是认识了 3 年般。
我们私底下聊的东西不是茶饭话题或者废话，而是对公司的人事物，提出自己的想法，然后一起分析。
另外也会谈到一些人生观，待人处事之道，办公室之道。
我才发觉，这个人内心的想法原来都很成熟。
他说的每一句话，做的每一件事，都是先前经过深思熟虑才说和做的。
可是尽管这样，我未必会完全认同他的做法的~
所以当我不认同时，就会讲他，而他，如果觉得我讲的对，就会听进去。
起码不是个固执的人。

而这个人，也很有义气。
每次上班前去 pasar seni 的时候，都会顺便打给我问我要吃什么。
上班前，上班后，都会无端端收到他的电话，和我讲下废话，消磨下我等巴士的无聊时光~
我只能说，他对好朋友的态度，宛如对待他女朋友般。

知道他怎么说吗？

“哦没有没有，如果是女朋友更够力！”

Wah !! 有没有哦~

他说我是他少有可以说秘密和谈心事的人。
算命师告诉他说他今年会遇到两个好朋友。而这个语言也被确认了。
一个是他以前的同学，另一个是我咯~哈哈哈！
其实听到这句，我还蛮感动的~
如果一个人愿意把自己内心深处不愿其他人发掘的秘密都告诉你时，代表他真的很信任你。

有些人和别人相处了一年，两年，但是仍然和他保持一般朋友的距离。
有些人则时间较短，半年吧。
可是我这个朋友和我才 3 个礼拜，就肯挖出内心想法给我。
我真的很高兴有人对我这么信赖。

不久前才问过卉亭，我是值得你们那么信赖说心事和秘密给我听吗？
卉亭说是。

其实我人很简单，如果你在没有阴谋没有企图，真心对我好的话，我也会对你好。
我承认自己是个被动的人。。。
朋友生日，若不是有人先提议要合钱送礼物，我应该不会主动买礼物给朋友。。
就好像，Catholic 的 U6A 的 shu ying, huey teng 和 lee xin 如果不先主动做卡给我，我啊。。。应该最多会买卡回来写吧~哈哈~ 可以讲我懒啦。。。。
可是你吩咐我做的东西，在我能力范围之内的，我都会尽力去做。。。做不到的，我会觉得愧疚。。。因为我讨厌帮不到人，令到其他人失望的感觉。。。

所以，即使是一个没有那么熟的朋友拜托我帮他做一件事，我也可以像对待好朋友那样地帮他。

可是说我偏心。。。为何不熟的朋友和熟的朋友的待遇是一样的？

其实不一样。

好朋友讲心的。
好朋友是谈心的，就是在精神上给你最大扶持和安慰的人，而不是满足你物质需求的人。

所以我常告诉我朋友，在我生日时，千万千万不要花钱买礼物。
我比较想要的是卡片。。或者是一些有纪念价值的东西。

我不喜欢大家为了花钱给我而心痛。。。明明大家都是学生嘛。。。经济来源不是来自我们嘛。。所以那些物质东西，真的不需要。。。
但是我依然很感谢你们做过的卡，送过的礼物啦~

我目前的钱包，和皮带都是你们送的！
哦，还有，lei heng 和 ah hen，我开始有用你们今年特别的礼物哦~哈哈哈！！！
很舒服下~ =P

对，我觉得自己真的很幸运。。。
去到哪里都遇到贵人。。。
可能因为酱的缘故，造就了不与事纷争的态度。

当然，佛学影响我最深。
我无法想象，如果当初没有参与 12 年的佛学班，我是多么地不孝顺，多么不会想，多么会耍心计的人。
我无法想象。

当然，我目前仍存在很多缺点，
请包容我。。。我会改进的。。
我的脾气应该改进了许多吧，lei heng? 哈哈~ 反倒是某人的变得越来越凶~ 哈哈！

我所遇过的每个人，都是我学习的对像。

U6A A9,
SS gangs ~ the cheong k gang~ haha,
Mobile Technic 的同事,
Madam Too,
还有大学的朋友，
还有 Preventive Healthcare 的同事们，

我都会珍惜，我会牢牢记住你们。

当你们有事要我帮时，记得叫我。

Start working today

2010-05-23T18:38:00.000-07:00

Too many things happened in just few days ..

My mood isn't back yet ..

And today I'll start working as a telemarketer.

Salary isn't high, but I think it's sufficient la~ Telemarketing sometimes depends on your luck. But I think most importantly, the way u talk, whether you are persuasive and convincing enough to get more sales and commision and thus, more income.

I just hope I can learn skills and knowledge in this work.

And of course, I hope I can get along with my colleagues well.

I know I'm gonna sacrifice a lot, especially the time I'll spend with my family and friends, because my working hour is 10 -6, monday to saturday. 10-6 on saturday too !

1 day off only~ biasalah ~

Keep myself happy in every places !! I like challenges !

I don't want to get myself in a over comfortable places, cuz that will make me become lazy.

Stress myself in my workplace, and I'll grow up!

All the best everyone !

P/S: Madam Too, sorry I can't work with you for this holiday, because I want to try telemarketing this time. But, if you guys need any help (for example, photostating, typing notes, teaching erm ... perhaps la, on sunday), I'll surely be there after my work. I seriously don't mind, cuz I miss you guys and I enjoy working with you all !! Hehe.

想。。回家。。

2010-04-27T16:46:00.000-07:00

昨晚去 cimb bank 按钱，可是它竟然显示 "insufficient funds" 。
奇怪？明明还有几百块在里面吧。。。为何突然之间没钱呢？

从银行出来后就立刻打给妈妈要她替我进钱。

自从二月后，我就没有再打给妈妈了。。。因为我的 digi campus 在二月没参与活动之后，很少用超过两块，所以自然没有 free calls 咯。没有 free calls，就自然不会想到要打给谁聊天咯。

跟妈妈要钱后，妈妈半开玩笑地说：

"huh ？酱快用完？那天不是才进钱给你咩？哇你用的钱还比我多哦。。"

"什么哦？这里食物很贵嘛，又不是我想的，一碗饭或者面 4 块半咧~ （是指图书馆的 cafe）”

“是咩。。。酱啊。。。”

“不过很奇怪咯，明明还记得我的 bank account 有几百块的，不懂做么现在没有钱哦”

“cimb 啊？它有时是酱的，那天我按钱它竟然 show 我 negative balance 。你明天再试啦~”

“哦。。”

之后我便进图书馆读书。。。

可是读来读去都读不进。。。

我的心情也不知怎么的，有点闷闷不乐，有点伤心也有点失落。。。

后来我知道了，原来我想家了。。。。

妈妈之前说过的每句话一直在我脑中徘徊。。。妈妈要我省钱。。。才发觉我最近真的用很多钱。。。

好不容易 claim 回的 RM160 看似庞大的数目，其实并不多。。。 16 天就可以把它耗尽。。

每次从钱包把钱掏出来我都有内疚的感觉。。。觉得上大学很浪费钱，每天每刻都要花父母的钱（因为 ptptn 只拿到 half loan，去年做工的薪水也用得 7788，逼不得已才跟父母讨钱）。。。

好吗这种日子？没有收入却每天逼不得已地不断支出。。。。

这个假期我必须考车和摩多车的执照。。。那又是一笔很恐怖的数目。。。

为了缴付那笔收入，我必须有份高薪水的工作。。。part time 工，能高多少呢？？。。

有时会不爽为何大学假期才两个月那么短？要长不长，要短不短。。我哥哥 NUS 一放就是三个月。。。多么好，起码找工容易。

有时也很想快点毕业找工，才可以有自己的收入，自己也可以主宰钱的去向。。

我想家了。。。很想很想。。。。

甚至发呆都会想象自己的家会有多大改变。。。

可是还有三科没有考完。。

加油了各位！

烂

2010-04-26T18:22:00.000-07:00

马来西亚竟然创造了一个大完便不会冲水的大学生。。。。。

丢脸！

恶心！

很胃！

又臭！

Shit grade

2010-04-22T02:11:00.000-07:00

shit result ...

shit carry marks/grade I've got for many subjects in this sem ...

shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit ....

The subjects I'm always proud taking - Pengantar Falsafah, because many seniors got A for that subject, has hinted me that I can't score an A anymore .... My carry mark is 48/70 ... A for uni level is 80, so how am i supposed to get an A when the final takes up only 30% ?????? My mid term screwed up, I got 8/20 only ! What man !! I thought I did quite ok .... But but but, I should be grateful instead, for my getting 27/30 for my group assignment. Whee ... but then ... A is still impossible to reach ...

TITAS (Tamadun Islam dan Asia Tengara) .... haihz haihz haihz .... sux sux sux sux sux la ... Assignment only 27/40 ... mid term 10/20 ..total carry mark is oly 37/40 .. to at least get an A-, i need 38/40 ... walao wey ... i'm super weak in memorizing lor ...

Macroeconomy .......................................... needless to say .....

The only satisfying result is Finance, A- for my carry grade. And that's the ONLY one...

Blame myself, for not being as hardworking as last sem ...
And blame myself for active in actitivies ... (though i enjoy every moments with my colleagues la~)

I prefer studying my major subject ... like Financial management, macroeconomy, mathematical economics .... and yeah ! Next sem I'm gonna get rid of teras universities subjects like: Falsafah, TTAS, hubungan etnik, politics, public speaking ! Woo Hoo ! Even though they claim that the teras university's subjects are meant to push up our grades ... Hmmm .... Depends bah ...I don't really agree ... because I have no mood to do those teras university assignments, and no mood to study it too ... that's the result of my current grade la.

All the best everyone !

I must accept that my grade is gonna be pushed down, and will cut down activities and concentrate on my studies in the coming semester.

Sakura ~

2010-04-14T02:58:00.000-07:00

My coursemate called this as "Malaysia sakura" (大马樱花）.

I think now is the blossom season bah ..

So ..... beautiful especially these tress are planted at the roadside.

UMS will officially be the most beautiful university in the world when all of these tress blossom at the same time.

I mean, at that blossom moment only la .. haha.

TITAS

2010-04-14T02:30:00.000-07:00

Out of sudden, I remember what my TITAS (Tamadun Islam dan Asia Tenggara) lecturer said:

"Saya rasa Tamadun Cina ni sukar ditembusi, sebab tamadun Cina ni panjang, budaya dan sejarah telah ditanam dalam masyarakat tersebut."

This statement is totally wrong !

I just got an answer for her.

Well, why do we find it understandable and acceptable to us?
Because we've learnt or learning Chinese, therefore, we accept everything without any translation.

Chinese words have many meanings, we can define it differently, its definition may differ from one another.

When it comes to translation, it's even worst. The content may not as same as what it ought to be.

Imagine reading chinese history in Chinese and in English, n u'll know the difference. We'll tend to complain that, that's not the right word to describe that situation or feelings.

Perhaps that's the reason for our lecturer having this perception that "tamadun Cina ni sukar untuk ditembusi". Because I got the same feeling when I was reading "Tamadun India". It's a bit heavy for me to memorize all the Tamil terms.

I bet our lecturer didn't study carefully what have happened for the past 5000 over years of the civilization of China, cuz she finds it difficult to memorize the terms. What she received was a translated version of the history of china book.

It could be due to her lack of knowledge in these 2 tamadun (India and China), she skipped a lot of slides.

She used 1 class to finish tamadun Cina, whereas she used more than 2 months or even more to finish the Tamadun Islam and Tamadun Melayu chapters.

Biasala tu ...

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2010-04-06T16:58:00.000-07:00

I'm so sad ....

I fail for my japanese mid-term ...

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Titas got 10/20 for mid-term as well .....

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But i'm more disappointed with Japanese result .........................................

No more dean list for this sem, CONFIRMED !!!!!!!

Studies always come first ...... shit lo shit lo shit lo.... i thought i did ok for japanese mid-term ... but no i din ....................................................................................... I'm just hoping to get a B for finals and that's more than enough already ..... since mid-term only 20% ....

Study study study ! all the best everyone !

2010-03-16T17:18:00.000-07:00

In just a week, what has happened?

Congrats to 2 person.

1 - Davey !!! For finally ur girl friend accepted you !!!!

2 - Richard, my roommate !!! Haha, this is really shocking news la, cuz I knew he got into relationship in facebook where he changed his status from it's complicated to in a relationship ! haha, and when he got back to our room, I "questioned" him a lot, and he said he felt like being interviewed by me ! hahaha. Yalah, I'm 8 wan ma.

Woo Hoo ... everyone's getting their partner .....

When is my turn leh?

烂

2010-03-11T00:19:00.000-08:00

Finally made the decision to reject the offer for being Vice Pres in English Debate, and I'll allocate more time on Chinese debate.

The reasons are, I don't want to get myself so busy anymore .... joining both sides ... being an irresponsible students .... I need to push up my CGPA, first class the best ! So that I can study Master with the sponsor of scholarship, overbroad ...

And, since the uni only sent 4 person for 全辩 including me, and the 全辩 is held 2 years once.

After 2 years, 1 senior will be graduating; another 2 SSMP(sekolah makanan dan pemakanan) students will be going for Industrial Training, so left me alone, who knows how the tournament is like, the high level of competitiveness and quality of the tournament.

It's my duty to let the juniors know everything about this.

And another thing which 4 of us agreed to contribute to Sabah's secondary schools Chinese debate club is, to introduce the 全辩 format/style of debate to them. Besides that, we must also organize more tournaments among secondary schools to heat up the culture of debate.

And lastly, 看了沙巴大学对 MMU 的影带，觉得自己的水准比起中学时代跌了很多，很失望。。。所以，如果两年后有机会上场的话，我想借助这两年时间，好好充实自己，读多一点书，看多一点辩论的影带，进步自己。。。才有资格站上全辩舞台。。

当然，也希望其他大学不要再瞧不起沙巴大学的辩论员了！

套用佩敏的话，

“我们没有教练，只有一班很有心的辩论员，我们要自力更生，要自强不息！”

就那么多。。

I've realized my hot tamper is back ... Shit ... Sure I've hurt many people la ..
Sorry ya ...

（察觉自己和上学期比起来，变坏了很多。。。我不再像以前一样，不管是谁叫我做东西我都很乐意去帮。。。现在反而要挑问的人是谁了。。如果不熟，就很懒惰去帮他。。。
怎么办。。。
有点讨厌这个 sem 的自己。
上进心全没了。
功课也忘了做，assignment 几时交都不知，而且 japanese 明明知道自己跟不上又不花时间去温习。。
很差劲。。。很烂。。。
很想去佛堂上课。。。好让自己可以一再一再提醒自己要学佛陀的善行。。

Stop any activities for ruining my time

2010-03-05T09:56:00.000-08:00

Before going to U.M to debate, I told myself,

"This is definitely gonna be my last activity for this sem, I won't be joining any activities or debate tournament anymore(except for training)"

But, when I came back to KK, the moment I switched on my phone when the air plane landed on Terminal 2, air asia airport, I received a msg from TJ(current president for english debate club),

"Guys, today's training cancelled. We gonna have meeting at 6p.m"

So I asked, meeting for?

He replied me, meeting is for a Eng & B.M debate tournament organized by Kelab Orato of Kampung E(lx's kampung) to promote debate.

But why suddenly has this debate? Last year don't have also.

Oh, cuz Kampung E has changed a new pengetua(The ketua for the whole kampung), so rite, to show he's doing something, that's why he suggested for debate. And the debate is called Piala Pengetua that will be held on 19th to 21st of March.

We're not really organizing, but just helping them in finding debaters, setting motions, being adjudicators only. (Relief a bit)

But you know where the tournament is gonna held?

In between one block and another, I heard was A1 and B2 or something like that la, anyway, it will be held in open air, with the setting of tank.

Reason?

Cuz rite, they want Kampung E residents to watch the debate once they pass by that area.

What a stupid publicity way they could think of !! What the heck man !!

If rains how? U know there rite, a lot of cars and motorcycles passing by, it's not a quiet area, so ar, to the pitiful debaters, u guys have to raise up ur voice, if possible, scream, so that the adjudicators and the audience can hear you. Shit wey !

And Brandon told me I'm the Vice Pres for English debate club. I'm not happy u know for receiving such news? Honestly, I don't feel honored at all ! How bad I am ...

I have nvr enjoyed rest, and have nvr really pay attention on my studies (esp Financial Management) and assignments as well ... ever since the opening of this sem.

I'm so so so so so so guilty for being such a irresponsible students and groupmate. Sorry to Brandon for my politics assignments and sorry to Pei Ung for the APK proposal, and sorry to kim kyun for my TITAS assignments.

I nvr had this problem for last sem. I always thought I can handle my time, manage my time well .. But I couldn't. I'm not a smart student, I even forget what is "annuities" in my last class ... What the heck !! Luckily I recall it after doing revision.

K done for my part.

Stay strong oh Yee Feng, I can understand ur feeling, really ... where I have to pretend to smile, laugh as ppl do, in order to be part of them, that feeling is terrible and SHIT !

But, let it be bah ...

Really happy receiving msg from u, that hardly tells anyone ur story, but since I went to U.M and chatted with you, so I know la. So if u don't sms me, I'll get angry with you, maybe fan min with you tim ! Cuz that shows how low my status in ur heart lo. But luckily u proved how important I am. hahahahahahahahha. No ma, takkan u want to sms other ppl who doesn't know anything n u have to waste ur time to tell him/her the whole story since u're in a bad mood that time rite?

Anyway, Yee Feng punya taste not bad oh. Totally different type of person I could imagine of. Not cute, not wearing specs, not gentleman look at all !!

Instead, cool and yeng lo.

Don't think too much la, anything just give me a call or sms me.

Stay happy !

沙大辩论队，加油！

2010-02-25T10:15:00.001-08:00

今天我又要飞去 KL 咯~ 去参加全国大专辨。

比赛是星期六，晚上 8 点到 10 点，对垒 MMU。

辨题是 “我国当前的朝野博弈，日趋恶性竞争”，我们是反方。正方是 “良性竞争”。

昨天和崇正中学模拟辨，表现虽然比在建国好一点点，可是还是很烂！

最不能原谅自己的是，我竟然有 “口吃”，“语塞”的毛病！！！ Astaga 。。。

以前每当我要组句子时，就算是英文对话，我脑袋浮现的仍是华语，可是现在浮现的竟然是英文！！！！区区一个 indirectly 在华语我都不会翻译！！！有没有搞错哦！！！我真的对自己超级失望。

为何以前中学辩论时，说话可以那么流畅？而为何现在不能呢？

或许在大学念书接触的华语会比其他语言相对地少很多吧。。

总之，星期六的比赛就只能加油吧！

起码也要进到复赛吧。。。不然怎样对得起在背后为我们策划一切的光勇，以及陪着我们训练的所有辩论组成员？

沙巴大学加油吧！从来没有人看得起东马大学的辩论队，是正常的，所以我们要改变这种正常的想法 ~=D

好啦，我要继续找资料了。

还有一样东西，

再见了 shu ying !!!
我 sms 你的 010 电话号码，你竟然 sms 我们说你的 digi 电话有问题。。哈哈，可惜太迟了，想必你一定已经上飞机了吧。。
祝你开心！
想我们是一定要做的功课 =D 哈哈。专心啦！不用整天想我们的啦~ 哈哈。

五月快点来

2010-02-23T16:11:00.000-08:00

我现在的状态。。。接近崩溃了。。。

就连昨天，和建国独中进行的模拟辨，只为了适应这个星期六在马大的大专辨，可惜我表现得很烂，很烂，很烂很烂很烂！！

我陈词后坐下时，坐我旁边的三辨 - 佩敏也是这样对我说，

"你今天很烂，很烂，很烂！”

甚至到了双方二辨对话环节，我情况更糟，我根本就没有很正面地反对方，也没有巩固自己立场，整个对话环节我只听到什么，能够扯什么就扯什么。
头一次那么失败。

我的学长俊贤也讲：

“你是发生什么事？以前看你辨不是酱的。是不是失恋？压力大？还是不明白辨题？”

失恋倒没有，压力大和不明白辨题就真的很刚我的情况。

我承认我的确花不多时间在读资料上，
我承认因为上个礼拜有英文辩论，再上个礼拜有 pesta angpow，所以我参与的时间不多；
我也承认我花比较多时间在 assignment 上，因为全部的 assignment 都要在这个或下个礼拜交上去。

这次一去大专辨，也不知沙巴队会赢会输。
赢的话就迟回，输的话，就早回咯。

所以基本上，我所有的 assignment 一定一定要赶在去马大之前赶完。

所以，压力很大。

Financial management, Public Bank 的 financial ratios 如何算？怎样知道他们的 acc receivable 是哪一个？ sien 到啦。。在家做了两天才做出 current ratios 而已。。

Politics，is malaysia ready to remove protectionism and accept globalization? Please justify. 这种沉重的 topic 。。。。很难啦！！哇塞！

TITAS 好不容易做完。

Macro & Falsafah 一点都还没动到。

都不懂怎样死啦。

五月快点来，我受不了了。

哪里有教授这样对学生的，

Mid Term 和 assignments due date 撞在一起！siao 啦！

2010-02-21T23:32:00.000-08:00

Need to justify:

1.) Is Malaysia ready to remove protectionism and accept globalization
2.) If not ready, why?

Need to find Financial ratio for :

Financial Management.... haihz ..

Need to find sources for Chinese debate ... haihz ..

Need to do a lot of things but can't remember any right now.

Need to sleep ... I'm yawning ......................................... in the library.

No mood to do assignment, that's y i blog, to make my blog alive .

2010-02-21T07:38:00.001-08:00

看来，
已经习惯离开 kk，回到熟悉的家，再离开家，再回到熟悉的大学，宿舍，房间。

有些人像我这年纪，飞机也只不过坐了几次，
我却坐了 6 次。

幸福吗？幸运吗？

一点都不！
花钱过两个半小时程到东马，
还要特地早一两个小时到机场，
还要时时注意便宜飞机票，
air asia 又坐得不舒服，
MAS 还好，
幸好也只是两个半小时的路程。。

坐飞机没有一点是幸福的。。。。

新年假期超短。
短得要赔上400 多令吉的飞机票，超不划算！

也见了该见的家人，亲戚，和朋友。
还没见的朋友。。。我们一定有机会的！Jia Tee & Wai Mun & Ying Ying & Cynthia & Kien Fah & Su Chen & Shu Yen & others.

也要感谢 madam too 那么随性，那么突然地决定去 sepang gold coast。
在全部东西还没有确定好就立刻飞车到那边 BBQ 和放孔明灯。。

不过，我很喜欢。。。。
那种全部人争着在孔明灯上写上祝福语，
那种大家看到孔明灯升起而雀跃地鼓掌，尖叫的感觉很温馨。。。

现在回忆起来还蛮开心的。

这礼拜的假期就衰在不够时间和朋友谈心事。
不用紧，我们五月会回来放长假！

最有，要特别特别感谢：

Kah Yew，谢谢你从去年在 Pusat Tuisyen Akademik 做工时，每一天都来载我。
等我有 license 你就可以享受一下坐后座的感觉。
谢谢谢谢！

最后要特别祝福一个人：

Shu Ying !!! 树影！！！
想到两年之内你不能回来，真的替你感到很可怜一下。。。因为我就算读东马，虽然还是在马来西亚，但是每次假期没到就迫不及待地很兴奋要回家。
而你，假使真的两年不能回家，希望你在那边过得开开心心。一定一定要哦！
万事小心，不要被那边的人给欺负！
要证明大马学生也很厉害！

祝福你一路顺风！考试 number 1 ！事事顺利！

=D

我要读 TITAS(tamadun Islam dan Asia Tenggera) 了。
有三个还没动的 assignment 这个礼拜要交，
同时间要筹备去马大比赛的辩题。。。

自己也要加油啦。。。

这个学期以来，我没有一个真正得空的礼拜。。

2010-01-29T16:00:00.000-08:00

MC practising moments >>>

See Yen(AJK MC) & Jessie(Informal MC)

(l-r) Informal MC - Chan Loong, Jit Ai, He Long & Meng Hu(AJK MC)

The girl who has many complains - Tze Yann(AJK MC)

Together with Zoel, in a dancing studio

Road Show >>

The very funny SIEW LAI - my partner for Kampung CD & E roadshow.

Singer - Shan mei

Lion Dance from 华光德功会

Whee

2010-01-28T16:25:00.000-08:00

We had roadshow at Kampung CD on Tuesday night and Kampung E on Wednesday night to promote Pesta Ang Pow to fellow students.

I was the MC on both roadshows, due to my MC group was busy practising their script, as they have to add in "Malay" language in their speech (originally was Eng & Chinese) cuz we want to show respect to all races. Well, it's kinda last minute decision, but at least, it wasn't the night before the Pesta Ang Pow only they tell us. Luckily ..

Together with me hosting the roadshow is - SIEW LAI !!!

She's the Malay MC, and I was the Chinese MC

I was totally stunned when she started open her mouth to speak in Malay. U will never imagine a Chinese girl can speak Malay so fluently ... It's WOW .. as if she's the DJ of Malay FM.

And she's outspoken, spontaneous and not to forget - Funny !!! She can easily bring up the atmosphere.

Kampung CD -> We've invited Lion Dance from 华光功德会 for both roadshows.

I did very bad in Kampung CD, I was nervous (What the heck !!), screwed up a lot.

That night, I realized that, I couldn't be so formal, I must be more informal, like Siew Lai. So that the audience can easily interact with me.

Then in Kampung E, I can feel myself did better than in Kampung E. Whee =D

Of course thanks so much to Siew Lai la. Without her I will get a bit lost. Well, I'm very blur, that's what my MC told me. =D

Anyway, had a great time with all the AJK and my dearest PAP night MC.

All the best

* Too bad, the upload speed here too slow, I couldn't upload any pictures in here and facebook ..*

Woo Hoo

2010-01-18T17:47:00.000-08:00

Woo Hoo !

Someone's replacing me as the English MC for Pesta Ang Pow !!

Haha !! Relief now !

I don't really like restricting myself not to even say a word of "la", "ma", meh", or "bah".

N i prefer being a Chinese MC, because I'm so much comfortable with it.

Getting my brodband very soon. I've paid RM100 for the activation fees and the first month fees !

Woo Hoo.

Can I faster end this month? I cannot tahan adi.

I really need to study.

Financial Management so mafan, everything related to Acc ... so boring ...

Mathematical economics ... haha, this is like form4 mod maths, or even form3 maths. Why I know the syllabus for form4 and form3 ? Thanks to Madam Too lo !! haha.

As in, the first few chapters are form3 and form4 maths la ... but the following chapters will link to ln, Differentiation, Intergration. Woo Hoo !! So fun wey ! More fun than statistics for business and economics, as this don't need to memorize formula, everything is like maths skills only .

But financial management ar ... sien la ... Wat Net working capital, gross fixed assets , driving me crazy men, when I was finishing the tutorial homework, and I still couldn't get the correct answer. What the heck !!

All the best everyone, I gotta go HEP to sah some documents, and climb to the canselori building to make appointment with the Vice Chansellor for my president of English Debate Club.

Busy hell month

2010-01-17T23:03:00.000-08:00

Have to spend RM320 for violin for modern music (co-cum)

Another RM48/58 for digi broadband monthly ...

Haihz ..

Can I end this month asap ... and concentrate on my studies ar ...

Just knew that I'm just a noob afterall.

English debate does improve my english level, as in orally la.
N my vocab has been widen quite much. Hehe.

But that's not enough for me to handle ENGLISH emcee for a night, 3 hours !!

My mother tongue is not english bah ... and most of the time I'm talking in Chinese.

I only speak english during Debate training and towards debate friends (in uni la). So MC is a tough job to test spontaneousness, my job is not only translating (cuz PAP is a chinese event) but also handling emergency situations, and the crowd ....

In english, I don't think I have confidence .... really ....

In Chinese, maybe, But i do think i can do better than speaking english.

Pesta Ang Pow & English debate borneo cup in this month...

Pesta Ang Pow as a AJK of Program (MC unit),
Borneo Cup, as a protocol ...

haihz haihz haihz haiz haihz ...

I hate this month.

I want a broadband asap ! UMS don't know why cut out internet access even in our hostel's cafe and dewan. Wth !

Balik lagi banyak masalah

2009-12-27T22:22:00.000-08:00

Reached my hostel at 4.30 and the door was locked, and it's still lock.

Y? Because they r so kind to change a new door lock for us, which I think that's not a dire need for us ....

And they were so smart to open their office on office hour only. I reached yesterday, Sunday, obviously that's not they day where government servant shoulld work la ...

K fine, I went to Jimmy's(and ah xian's room - Lee Xin's bf) room to stay overnight.

I was hungry because my flight was 12.50 to 3.20, and AirAsia doesn't provide food even during lunch hour and dinner time .... So was thinking to go my hostel's cafe to tabao. Unfortunately, cafe was closed as well. What the heck !!!

K fine, ask Ah loong to tabao MacD for us, as he was at his friend's hse yesterday night.

My temporary accomodation was settled. However, problems were coming up. Their door lock was destroyed for no reason, because everything in the room still remained untouched. So we didn't know what's the purpose of the person who destroyed the lock without taking anything away. (Anyway, we should be glad for it la, haha)

Next, when my friend wanted to take bath. Opps, no water ... But water tank got water, so we take all the pale and fill it with water. I lazy to take bath la .... Jimmy and Ah Loong took their bath like how Labuan students did ----- under the tank ... some brought their pale la .. open air take bath, luckily was at night.

And we had to boil water cuz the cafe is closed, usually we refill water with the R.O water machine.

The next day, morning 8a.m, I went to the office to get my room's key. And their answer really surprise me.

"We havent got the key from the contractor yet ... Maybe because the contractor changed the door lock during holiday. But they havent passed the key to us. "

Apa ni? What a irresponsible answer !! If my friend's door lock is changed as well, then where should we all go? Stay at hotel ar?

Haihz haihz haihz ...

And my class got nobody inside the class. Meaning no class la .....

I'm at 1Borneo MacDonald right now with Lee Xin infront of me .... online ... facebook ... and checking our result.

Oh by the way, Lee Xin's result was out, but mine not yet .... 2 hours ago till now ... haihz haihz haihz ...nervous nervous nervous ......

Bye Selangor tomorrow

2009-12-25T20:38:00.000-08:00

The result is still not out yet.

I'm freaking sien, until I got no feeling adi.

Packing packing my luggage, must ensure it doesn't exceed 15kg ... Becuz AirAsia is low cost airline, and it's using airbus, it has lower capacity compared to MAS to carry passengers and luggage ...

And by the way, the air ticket for tomorrow's flight is not cheap either ... RM262 ... wahaha ...

My mum has been urging me to pack my luggage since Friday, and I ignored her "order" everytime.

"Stubborn !" She scolded me. Haha.

She doesn't understand one thing.

I'm not looking forward to return to my Uni ... as Subang Jaya, Selangor is a comfort zone .... I have my family, my beloved friends, high speed and stable streamyx here, I have my room, my bed, I have whatever I need over here, except my uni friends ..

I'll miss them sometimes when I'm here at Selangor, Semenanjung Malaysia ....

Yes, I'm not looking forward to go back to UMS. I know my life will certainly be super busy. Not only 22 credit hours, but also Pesta Angpau, debate ... co-cum .... hmm .... back to assignment again .... hopefully I won't get incorporate groupmates la ...

That's why I don't want to pack my luggage that early ... it somehow gives me the feeling that I still have much time staying in this comfort zone as long as I don't start packing my luggage ...

How far is Sabah to Selangor ?

2 and a half hours of flight. Think it's approximately 1000++km. And I'll reach there by just paying RM262.

And I'm gonna start my 2nd sem by just paying RM865, excluding books la of course.

And I'm going to spend more than RM300 a month, because the cost of living is high there.

And I'm gonna deal with Malay foods .... not so tasty overall ....

And I'm goona get used to the "not so clean" toilet again .....

And I'm gonna call my family and friends whenever I've exceed RM2 daily usage for digi campus ...

And I'm not gonna enjoy high speed internet anymore .....

And I'm gonna miss everything in Selangor and try my best to live happily in the Uni =D which I will do la.

Learn to enjoy urself at any place. =D

"Piak !"

Ok, I need to continue packing my luggage.

I just remember that I need to post all the pictures I've taken here before I leave to the low speed Internet place ....

乖又不乖，坏又不坏

2009-12-20T04:20:00.000-08:00

我们是乖又不乖，

坏又不坏的孩子。

因为我不习惯也不喜欢半夜才爬上床睡觉，

更不用说去外面游荡到天亮才归家，

因为我会觉得很没有安全感。

喧哗又嘈杂的音乐，

烟味很重且黑漆漆的地方，

只能隐隐约约看清四周围

看着舞池的人很忘我地跳舞,

那种感觉很怪。

我们也很怪。

似乎和周边的很格格不入。

看来，对其他人来说，

我们也很怪吧。

我们的性格不狂野，

因为我们不喜欢嘈杂，

我们只喜欢纯纯地，

要唱歌就去唱 k,

要跳舞就去在自己家里跳，

要喝酒，就在亲戚婚礼或特定地方喝酒兼聊天。

我们不喜欢在一个地方做那么多事，

因为我们应付不来。

但是我并没有说喜欢去那种地方的是坏孩子啊！

只是，大家兴趣不同罢了 =D

2009-12-14T08:21:00.000-08:00

似乎看透，也明白了件事。

心情也爽朗了许多，

但是依然逃不过一点的落寞。。。也不懂为何。。

Home

2009-12-09T16:42:00.001-08:00

Home is always the best.

Those who never stay outside to study will never get the same feeling as us.

Today is 10th of December.
Another 17 days, I'll be going back to UMS, Sabah.

And I'm not delighted .... not looking forward ..... even though sometimes I'll miss my friends ....

Why?

22 credit hour for next sem !! Which mean, 19 hours of lesson in 5 days (Mon-Fri) and 3 hours of co-cum on Saturday.
Besides that, PAP is coming soon. And I don't think our MC and program unit is ready for it. And my ketua wants us to prioritize PAP .... meaning, we may have high chances of skipping classes....
Next, I'm learning a foreign language - Japanese ..... and u know learning something new isn't easy.

Next sem I'll be extremely busy !! Urgh !!!

Should've appreciate first sem ... only 18 credit hours .....

Think I should cut down my activities bah .....

Subang Jaya, Selangor is the best ....
I have my family, friends, and all the familiar shops and shopping centre ....

I think I haven't really adapt to UMS' life .... Haihz ... pai seh ..

《花的姿态》 by 穹风

2009-11-23T18:22:00.000-08:00

恐怖。。
我竟然一天看两本小说。。。

昨天我用了两个半小时把藤井树的《流浪的终点》看完。
写了 blog 之后，我又拿起穹风的《花的姿态》来看。

一读，就从傍晚 8 点多，读到半夜 2 点半。

只能说，
赞啊！

故事性很强，
转折不算多，
笑点虽然不多，
但胜在连贯性强。

和《流浪的终点》比起来，
《流浪的终点》的页数少很多，不过这不是重点啦。

藤井树的书，通常故事性都不大强，
因为他把大多数的文字都花在描写人物的内心想法，矛盾，人物特征，
所以很多人多嫌藤井树很啰嗦，所以宁愿选择九把刀的书就是这种原因。

而我个人认为，
穹风的《花的姿态》，无论故事或者人物描绘上都很不错。
虽然人物场景的描绘还是藤井树胜一筹啦，
可是，他这本的故事真的真的很不错，
故事性或许跟九把刀几乎一样，但是人物场景的描绘绝对绝对胜过九把刀。

但还是一句啦，依个人喜好而定，并没有说哪一本比较好，哪一本比较差。

至于《花的姿态》的故事，
简单来讲，就是小时的恋情，转了 10 年才有结果。
中间的错综复杂，擦肩而过，才是精华！

赞啊！

Uncle 没有介绍错，谢谢他！

不过很不好意思，
我还是觉得藤井树的《流浪的终点》和《夏日之诗》并没有《六弄咖啡馆》好看。

另外要补充的是，
藤井树的书，每次都会把先前的问号交代得很清楚，这也是他的另一个优点。

如果要我推荐藤井树书的话，我会选：

《六弄咖啡馆》，《我们不结婚，好吗？》，《有个女孩叫 Feeling》，《这是我的答案》，《B 栋 11 楼》，《这城市》（其实《这城市》是《B 栋 1 1 楼》的后续），《夏日之诗》，因为这些的故事性比起其他作品来得强些。

当然他也出过短篇小说 - 《从开始到现在》里面集合了他写过的短篇小说，里面的《你的眼镜》是最好看的！当然，其他也很不错啦~

《流浪的终点》by 藤井树

2009-11-23T03:35:00.000-08:00

花了 2 个半小时就把藤井树的《流浪的终点》看完。

他写的书，
总是那么可以很快把我们的情绪带入书中，
而在看完之后，仍意犹未尽，
依然徘徊在故事当中。。。

我觉得藤井树不止是作家，
也是位哲学家。

“旅行需要目的，流浪需要终点；
流浪的终点是另一个起点。”

这句，
经典。

看了书，
才能明白他要表达的是什么意思。

我记得他上一本书《夏日之诗》里也提到很经典的句子：

“人的灵魂，四四方方，像方块一样。
当你爱一个人，你就会像切蛋糕一样，把一半的灵魂分给他；
这时，你的灵魂就不会完整。
而，当你爱的人，也爱你，
那他就会把它一半的灵魂给了你。
这一来以往，就会使你和他的灵魂不会出现缺口。

而当你爱的人不爱你时，因为一半的灵魂都给了他，所以你的灵魂就会出现去缺口”

多优美的句子啊!

好，
接下来要读的书是藤井树推荐的作者的书《花的姿态》 ~

一位值得学习的 uncle

2009-11-22T23:32:00.000-08:00

今天下午去 carefour 理了发，

理发师把我头发剪得。。。。还 ok 啦。。。没有上次 1Borneo 那位理发师好看，但是我还很满意一下~

然后，就索性去理发店楼下的书摊去找找书。

顾书摊的 uncle，突然走了过来。
他大概有 60多岁，很瘦，头发不多，
一见到我在找书，问我的第一句是：

“你绑牙多少钱”

我就答他，我去政府的，才 700 块而已，然后我们继续在这话题聊了大概 5 分钟。

接着，我又继续找我的书。
最后，给我找到了藤井树的新书《流浪的终点》。要谢谢一鸣通知我，不然我都不知我最喜爱的小说家出了新作品。

然后正当我继续找其他书时， uncle 又问我：

“你喜欢九把刀的书吗？”

我想了想，便指着《流浪的终点》藤井树的名字说：

“我比较喜欢藤井树多过九把刀”

然后 uncle 继续说：

“九把刀很多书，但是我最喜欢的是《等一个人的咖啡》，写得实在好！”

“哦，我知道那本。可是我还是觉得藤井树的文笔比较好，比较细腻。”

“哦藤井树的水准比九把刀高很多，但是看个人喜好啦。我推荐你《寂寞之歌》”

“ huh, 《寂寞之歌》啊？不是很好看 wor 。。。那个《六弄咖啡馆》是最好看，最经典的书。还有还有，蔡智恒也不错! ”

“那个蔡智恒啊，很衰的！很久很久才出一本书。。。唉。。 ”

哈哈！！！

我们就这样聊了一阵，之后他就说：

“现在，买两本送一本，你看看你还要选多一本还是买多一本，送你多一本吧。”

“唔。。。”

找着找着，终于给我找到我大哥很久以前借回来的书，超级好看，但是我大哥还回去了。

作者是穹风，书名叫《听风在唱歌》。

这本书，实在好看，很感动！
很难的，除了藤井树，蔡智恒之外，文笔那么好的作者！
故事线不错，总之什么都不错啦！=D

由于买两本送一本，所以我又要继续找书。

uncle 有介绍我，

“ 最近，蝴蝶这个作者的书还蛮受欢迎的，不止写言情小说，也写武侠的，是一系列的书。有兴趣吗？”

“ 哈哈，没什么咯。。”

“要不然，买点关于经济的书？ ”
（经济啊。。我昨天在 summit 才买了好几本。。不要啦）

“hmmm ...... ”

“ 好啦，你慢慢选”

接着， uncle 从书架上，取出一本书。
标题的字还吸引过书名，
标题是 “ 藤井树惟一推荐的作者 - 穹风”
然后，我再看下书名 - 〈花的姿态〉

Uncle 继续说，

“其他作者你可以不看。但是，如果是很出名的作者推荐的另外一个作者，就非看不可！这本书是藤井树看了才推荐的，所以一定要看。通常，酱子的情况是，这作者的书会很好看，接下来的，就没那么好看了。”

“哦。。”

我看下价钱，16 块咧。如果加藤井树的〈流浪的终点〉 14 块就变成 30块，〈听风在唱歌〉虽然只有 12 块，但是如果说买 2 送 1，意思是选两本最贵的书来付。
可是，我钱包只剩 26 块。。。就跟 uncle 说：

“Uncle 啊，我不够钱，只有 26块，我看我只能选 12 块的书啦。。 ”

Uncle 考虑一下，就说 :

“如果酱子没关系！算你 26 块咯！”

“Huh, 可以啊？不好意思哦。。”

“哦，不用紧啦，反正你之后也会来找我买书的~ ”

爽快的 uncle !

“生意还好吗？ ”

“还好啦。。以前我们是买 3 送 1，但是，3 本就差不多 40 块了，谁会带酱多钱来买书咧？之后就变成买 2 送 1 咯。”

“ 哦，是酱啊。”

“ 你不要看 uncle 我好像很轻松酱啊，其实我还有考试的。”

“ huh? 考试？”

“对，考试。如果顾客要我介绍书，如果顾客问我那些书在哪里，我要很会的啊！”

“哇，就是说 uncle 你一定要看完这里所有书咯？然后了解这些书摆在哪里咯? ”

“呵呵。不止你们哦，还有一些 auntie 也叫我推荐书给她们，然后她们买了书，就上去一边喝咖啡，一边看书到很迟才回去哦。那些 auntie 平常要顾孙子孙女，两个星期才有一天得空，就去看书咯。她们通常会买些心灵的书，很不错的。我也看过，所以才得到某些启发。 ”

然后 uncle 就去另一边的书架，拿起一本书说：

“你看这个 ‘龙应台’，他的书在中国遭到封杀的。在国外才有得卖。 ”

我就问他，

“酱马来西亚还可以卖啊? ”

“你写马来西亚不好的东西，马来西亚不卖，但是外国想看啊！”

“ 哦，我明白了！”

然后，他很热心的引领我去另一边，

“像这些经济书对你们很重要。你必须看外国的经济，再来看国内的经济，然后作比较。这些经济书的作者，各说各的，好像每一位都很有道理。但是，当你仔细分析，你就会发现，其实，他们都在讲着同样一件事。”

“哦。。”

然后他便解释了很多关于货币，黄金，白金等等的理论，听得我很爽~
因为我喜欢 econs 的嘛~

“像这本《中国不高兴》里面就写明了中国经济背后的故事。”

接着我们的话题就环绕在经济中。
之后过了 15 分钟，我就和 uncle 道别。

uncle 其实是负责顾书摊的。
但是同时他也拥有一些权力，就比如说，他可以决定要进哪一些书的货等等。
这些，都需要他有一定的观察力，了解最近较流行的书，才可以有那种决定。

另外，uncle 还说他们有举行书展，
但是有书展的时候，他就不会在这里顾摊，由其他人顶替他。

我还告诉他， Summit Popular 有 warehouse sales，他就说：

“通常他们拿来卖的都是比较旧的书，我们这里也一样，我那边有 5 块钱的书，很受欢迎的！但是想想，旧书为什么还有人要买? 因为，知识是没有分新和旧的。”

Uncle 很有知识，是值得敬佩的人！
他活活地表现了 “活到老，学到老” 以及作为一个顾摊的，也必须非常尽责去满足客人的需求。

就像他酱，熟读了几乎每一本书，再一一跟客人分析和推荐哪一本书。
很尽责！

下次，等我想再买书时，我一定再观临这里，
因为这里有一位很热心的 uncle，很有知识的 uncle，很尽责的 uncle 。

SUMMIT 大倾销

2009-11-22T23:10:00.001-08:00

Summit USJ 的 Popular 现在举行大清库 warehouse sales。

warehouse sales 的物品包括了： CD, VCD, 书本还有其他物品，种类繁多。

昨天和一鸣很突然间的从本来的 pyramid 搭巴士去了 summit usj。
然后，一进大们 ground floor 就见到一摊摊的 CD, VCD 档口摆在中间。

进去一看，那些正版 CD 现在便宜到不像话！

蔡旻佑的有第一和第二张专辑；
F.I.R 的我找到《飞行部落》和《爱。歌姬》
温岚的有《热浪》
罗志祥的我忘记什么专辑了；
Twins 也有；
周杰伦我只看到一张，它的外表是《满城金带黄金甲》但是里面的歌曲是《牛仔很忙》专辑的歌；
林俊杰的有《曹操》还有其他我忘了；
马来西亚的，有：菲比，满江红，等等。

虽然全部是旧专辑，但全部通通只卖 RM9.90 !!! 哇塞！便宜到爆！

拿了 lei heng 的 f.i.r 两张专辑后，我就跟一鸣说

"做么感觉酱像买盗版的？”呵呵~

接着我们上去 4 楼的书展。

几乎全部书都标上 80% 折扣的标签！

假设说一本书的原价是 RM22, 扣了 80% 就变成 RM4.40 一本而已！！walao wey ..

我总共买了 5 本书，总数才不过 RM 28.10 而已！

很有满足感~

大家有空就去去 summit 吧！

P/S : warehouse sales 到 12 月 6 日。
还有酱多时间，不要说你抽不出时间来哦~

2009-11-20T05:06:00.000-08:00

Saya mau kerja !!
Saya mau part time kerja !!!

Tak tahan lah saya ni berada di rumah sepanjang hari, bosan betul !!!

Tak ada income, tak ada benda nak buat, tengok komik, tengok TV, main internet, main keyboard.

Argh !! Bosan betul !!

I need a part time job !!

Any recommendations ar?

2009-11-04T16:22:00.000-08:00

我真的很讨厌这感觉。

我喜欢我的朋友能过得开开心心，没有忧愁，烦恼。。。

说出来，的确能让我自己好过些，

可是，这样却令到听者难过，内疚。。

如果只有我一个过得舒服而其他人却因我而感到内疚和难过，我也会很难受。

我讨厌这感觉。

我恨死了！！

早知会这样，我就什么都保持沉默，让时间来锻炼我习惯，想通。

早知就不说，起码大家能够保持现状快乐的生活。。

可是我的坦白又耐不住。。。

以后我会学乖，以后我不再这样。

我会先寻求第三者的意见，

如果第三者帮不了我，

我再找当事人。

我真的很对不起。

我不想要你们过得很不开心。

能不能要求你们忘了我所说的一切？

请忘记吧。。。看着你们这样，我心里也真的很难过。

我恨自己为何要那么在乎？

我恨自己为何那么耐不住地去坦白？