Last year has gone.

I remember last year was the busiest sem I've ever had because I joined English and Mandarin debates.

At the beginning of 2010, I was busy for Pesta Angpau as a AJK M.C.
I sacrificed my personal time and my studies a lot until my ex-roommate, Richard and Rosman said they had not seen me for quite some time. But padahal I slept in my room every night =D
The outcome for Pesta Angpau was great ! Until now I'm so glad for being a part of AJK program @ AJK M.C.

I was so happy that our M.C performed steadily on stage and when I browsed through CARI website for the audience's feedback, I was so delighted and touched when I saw more positive comments than the negative ones, which was less likely to happen for the previous Pesta !
When I compared last year's and this year's Pesta Angpau, it's a super big contrast, especially M.C part. *I'm not biased, it's true !* haha.

The English M.C last year - Chan Loong even smsed me after this year's Pesta Angpau, saying
"Don't say me biased. But I still feel last year's M.C team was great !"

His next message was even funnier,
" The english M.C reminds me of the Jusco car park ticket machine's voice ..... "

Haha, damn mean la!

Nevertheless, the friends I know in AJK programs. I remember practicing light bulb dance together .... meeting together ....

Honestly I din regret for being AJK of Pesta Angpau though I was really tired and desperately need extra time for my assignments !

While preparing for Pesta Angpau, I was elected as the AJK Protocol unit for Borneo English Debating Championship organized by my uni. I had to climb the super damn long staircase to get to the Canselori building to pass the invitation letter for our Vice and Deputy Vice Chancellor. Besides that, I had to walk to School of Social Science, Engineering School and Psychology School to pass the letter to the Dean as well ! It's not 1 time travel, it's few times because sometimes their Personal Assistant wasn't available. And I had to follow up to confirm their attendance.

Besides the tournament preparation, we also busy with our usual weekly debate training because we were participating the tournament as well !!

I'll never forget teamming with Brandon and Shu Fen and we managed to enter semi final, and lost to UIAM with slight margin =D

*And the adjudicator praised me even though I had these 2 super strong debators with me*

Haha.
That's the greatest pride I had in my English Debate.

* But sorry for the lousy Protocol job ... *

After that tournament, I was chosen (part of it was my willingness) to participate in the 全国辩论大赛 Inter Uni Mandarin Debating competition. We had a small conflict for selecting the debators. Because, due to budget constraint, our uni was only able to sponsor 4 air tickets to U.M out of 7 which comprised 2 backups and 1 leader. So the conflict was about selecting the 4 debators for the competition.

But in the end, we settled the conflict and had a torturing 1 month for the debate topic discussion. And I could remember how lousy we were when we had a friendly match against 2 chinese independent secondary schools - 崇正中学 & 建国中学. One of the teacher of 崇正中学 even insulted our debate level in a very nice matter after the friendly match. Funny was, after the "insult", she welcomed us to their function that night and treated us dinner. Anyway, thanks to her for giving us the chance to review our mistakes and lighted up our fire to prove her that we weren't that weak and lousy as what they saw in the friendly match !

Haha, even though her insults motivated us, we still lost in the first round to MMU (Cyberjaya). However, at least, we performed better than the friendly match with the 2 Secondary Schools. This time, I din get any praises from the judges. Haha, it's expected because when I watched our repeat video, I felt I damn sux. My rebuttal was like talking craps and pointless!

Anyhow, I learnt a lot in the Mandarin debates and I get to know many other debators in other uni~

Not to forget, during our stays in U.M, Yee Feng was our babysitter ! Haha. Yea~ I forced her to babysit us instead of other uni =D She somemore said,
"Be grateful that I've chosen ur uni not HELP University College because HELP got leng zai"
Haha.


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That's how pack I was last year. I remember also, when Ah Hen or Lee Xin asking me to 1Borneo, my answer was a definite NO. And my reason will never escaped with either "English Debate", "Mandarin debate" and "Pesta Angpau".

When u asked me during that peak season of me about the latest movie , latest songs, I can answer u "I don't know" for sure.

I had a strong jealousy to my friends who did not join any activities at all and even able to watch drams in laptops. Ever since that, I told myself not to get much involvements on uni activities. It's time to focus on my studies and get more books from library to gain knowledge that are not taught in our course.

Looking at the present of me. I am and I was busy too, for that particular 2 subjects as we know. I prioritize my studies than activities such as: Program Motivasi and Keluarga Angkat at Sandakan and Family Day for my course during last sem. I don't sacrifice my time as much as I did compared last year. I did not give out my 100% effort as a AJK.

Ya, I was a terrible AJK. But at least I know what I hope to achieve for, which is my grade. Though first class - 3.75 is impossible, I hope to at least get 3.5 or above. Can I?

I'll work on it.

There are always losses and gains. I've got many friends last year and was lucky to get the chance to participate in 2 huge competitions. But what I sacrificed was my grade that dropped from 3.61 to 3.32.

What I've gained after quitting activities was the slight improvement on my grade, from 3.32 to 3.48 last sem. The average grade, CGPA is 3.46. Still, a distance to my target.

I've learnt to utilize the library. Not only getting high internet speed but also books that I always wanted to read when my time did not allow.

I have 1 and a half year ahead to graduate.

Though the ranking for UMS is low, we shouldn't let the ranking to be the deterrence factor to get a better job in future. We ourselves must improve whatever that awaits improvements. For me, would be knowledge, communication skills and English.

I hope to have a drastic improvements before graduation day.

Typing this post recalls my sweet and happy memories last year ....

I know I wouldn't get the happiness and satisfactions I got last year, but I will surely have the equal happiness somewhere.
At the meanwhile, stay happy and positive !

All the best guys !

I gotta head back to my tutorial homework and revision.

Emo and Sadness are a waste of time and energy.
I hope all of you who are currently reading my post will stop comparing yourself and others and grateful for what you have right now instead of thinking what you are not having.

It's not impossible to think like that, because it's all depend on yourselves whether you want to stay positive and negative and to decide your mood.

* 加油！*